No Greater Love

Chapter Three

Dean opened his eyes to the sound of birds chirping outside and the sun shining through the living room windows and onto his face. He smiled and turned his head expecting to see Cas next to him but he wasn't.

Dean set up fast, his heart racing with panic. He swore if he ever lost him again.

"Cas!" He got up and threw his pants on rapidly, fastening his belt. He walked through the house and into the kitchen and spotted him there. He was wrapped in Dean's robe and making coffee.

Dean let out a sigh of relief and walked up to him, putting his arms around him from behind, pulling him tightly in his arms. "You look so sexy in my robe."

Cas smiled and turned to kiss Dean softly on the lips. "I thought I'd make coffee before I left."

"You're leaving?"

Cas nodded slowly. "I have to go to work. Life doesn't stop cause we're in love you know?"

Dean smiled gently at him. "I wish it did." 

Cas gave a soft chuckle. "I do too"

He turned to finish making the coffee. Dean watched him and smiled to himself. This is what he wanted. Cas standing in his kitchen, making breakfast and coffee every morning, living a normal life.

Cas poured Dean a cup and handed it to him before pouring himself one. "So what are your plans for today?"

"Well Lisa comes home today..." his voice trailed off and Cas suddenly felt like his heart dropped to his stomach.

"Are you gonna tell her about us?" He asked him while he watched Dean take a sip of his coffee.

"Yes. I have to." Dean said swallowing the dark strong liquid and noticing the doubt in Cas's crystal blue eyes that fell from his gaze. He reached up and touched his cheek, tilting his head to get Cas to look into his eyes again. "Hey...I love you. Know that. Okay?"

Cas slowly nodded. "I know you do. It's just so frustrating Dean. I don't remember anything of our time we spent together. I don't remember anything."

"Hey..." Dean cupped Cas's face in his hands and stared into his eyes. "We'll fix it. Ok?"

Cas nodded and sat his cup down on the counter. "I'm gonna take a shower."

Dean watched him disappear into the bathroom and sighed to himself. He wasn't sure how he was going to tell Lisa but he knew he had to. He wasn't only hurting himself, but her and Ben as well.

A couple hours after he kissed Cas goodbye, Lisa and Ben pulled up in the same drive way. He watched through the kitchen window and took a deep breath. He was ready.

He went to the door and opened it as Ben ran into his arms. Dean hugged him tightly with all the affection he had in his heart for him.

"Did you have fun with your mom?"

"Yes." He said as he looked up at him. "I spent most the time on the beach. It was so much fun."

"That's awesome buddy." Dean told him and ruffled his hair and he ran inside to put his bag away in his room.

Lisa walked up and touched his cheek as she kissed him gently. He smelled the familiar scent of her skin and he closed his eyes. When she pulled away she looked into his eyes. "We need to talk."

"Yeah we do." He told her and they went in the house and sat on the couch.

"You first." Dean told her.

"I lost the baby..."

It felt like someone had stabbed Dean in the heart with a butcher knife. "Oh..."