Love And Death

Death

When I attended a funeral a few days ago I felt my heart become heavy and sorrow plague my mind and soul. I may have not know the man who passed but he was family due to i being married to his cousin. What I'm about to write goes out to those who are gone and those who have to face the pain of losing someone dear to them and what suicide does to those who love them.

Sitting in a room that is swarming with emotions is hard. Death sweeps through every soul, burdening it down into the deep depths of sorrow. Tears run as river down the faces of loved ones. Hearts are torn and some shattered completely. They wonder how they missed the signs, how an innocent fake smile hid so much pain and suffering. How could someone take their own life and leave their loved ones left to deal with the pain and unknown. They blame themselves for not knowing and wondering how, how could they not know they where loved.
Those who have left due to suicide think that even when their fine it'll be okay but its not. It hurts and shatters those who cared. They don't see us but we are here. When their gone we can only hope they see us and all who are there shedding tears that show our pain and sorrow.
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I was once someone who thought suicide was the only way to deal with hurting emotionally and with the pain I felt. I however fought it everyday and still to this day struggle with it. I have now seen what it can do and how it truly does hurt those who love us. It doesn't make the pain go away it only transfers the pain to someone else and that someone is our loved ones. I am glad I didn't take my life for if I did I wouldn't have met my husband nor lived to begin this journey with him. If your going through some thing that hauls you down or fighting an unknown battle please open up to someone and let then know so they can be there and help. Even if you think it wont, please don't end your life when there are those of us who care.

I am here if you need someone to talk to whose been there and can understand.

I love all my readers and hope this can help some of you. My heart is still heavy from seeing what suicide does to a family and how its hurt those I loved the most. Their tears stain my heart and pain my soul all because I can't heal their souls or heart. Only time can and even then it truly doesn't, it only covers it. Try as I might I can only be there to support them in their time of loss and heartache.
I hurt with them. Please think and feel the love of those who care before ending your life.