Blessing to Lesson

Lover

I love u a lot honestly your like my heart I can't live without you but my life will move on with or without you. I have a lot ahead of me and I know damn well when I doing good and better then ever your going to come crawling back to me. But I don't need one damn person ruining my life or dragging me down when I'm trying to get back up again ,,I don't need that in my life anymore. And this sounds crazy because I'm so madly in love with you and doing anything to be with you but I'm starting to realize my life isn't slowing down for anyone it's moving on with or without you in it. Yes I wish I could have told you the words I never got to say,,u helped me thru so much without me even telling you. You where there when I thought no one was. You where there for me they thick and thin but now your gone ,,but your like my Nemo I will sooner or later I will find you in the great big ocean. But I know I will find myself before I find you ,,and who knows I may not even want to find you anymore because of how great I am and how you are still your same ways...playing with "people's " emotions like their a god damn XBox. But I'm continuing my life right now without you and yes I am waiting for you but I don't have to put my life on pause for you. But thank you for showing me how to love myself and not get attached so easily cause you can love someone and leave them just as fast. You taught me that a boy isn't my only damn source of happiness. Your my lesson and my blessing now a days.You got my Thru fucking depression....depression but you are a big reason why it came back to me. You have me hope that's things would get better and they did....8/21/16. It was perfect,,magical,it was all I ever wanted and more. You gave me a feeling I never knew I needed. Are calls and messages where the only thing keeping me going,,I never told you how you literally saved me. I was to afraid to tell you what was going on at home cause I thought you would leave me. Eventually you started hurting me because I was to afraid to loose you so I let you hurt me because I was to afraid you would leave me but you did anyways. I need something deeper. "Your really cute I must admit but I need something deeper then this ".