Our love story is not like Romeo and Juliet's. Or something like Bella and Edward's. Maybe not to be written about. But it something special that no one can ever take away from me. Chanyeol, you're the only person that loved me for who I am. That's why I truly love you.. Until now.
You might think that you already know everything about me. But you're wrong. I have a lots of secrets especially about you, about what I think about you or how I feel about you. And I'll tell you everything about me and us.
Let's start with the first time I met you.
I was tweeting about something.. I don't remember about it and then a fan message me with your name on it and #Chandara. I don't know about you back then or even your group, EXO, but when I first read your name, I felt a tingling sensation in my stomach, much like butterflies. Weird right? not.
"Hey ya! What are you doing?",Bom asked from my back. She tapped me and I looked at her.
"Nothing, I was just.. You know, tweeting" I answered her.
"Who's Chanyeol?"
"wha?"
"Chanyeol. There" Bom pointed out at the computer.
"Oh. Yeah. Ahm.. I don't know. A fan pm'd me about him."
I face my computer and tried to log-out my twitter account but Bom stopped me.
"Hey! Stop."
"Huh? Why? Is there--"
"Why don't you try and search his name to google? Aren't you interested? Many of your fans ship you with him."
"Oh! Bommie, Look.. You know what I've been through. I just broke up with Jiyong and you know how hard for me to move on."
"That's the point! You need to move on! Try to open your heart again. You might not know the one that will truly love you If you'll just sit here and cry all the time just because of your previous relationship."
Bom has a point. If I'll spend my entire life thinking about my past. Asking myself why Ji Yong left me is nonsense.
"I'll let you time to think. But for the meantime go have a shower. Because you stinks." Bom added.
"Shut Up!"
That was the first time I saw your name Channie. After taking a shower, We searched your name to Google. And as always Bommie was like "He's so cute". I didn't say any of my opinion. But when we were looking at your pictures and videos I was smiling. It was my first time smiling like an idiot after Ji yong left me. Since then, I can't stop looking at your pictures, even your music videos and many fan fictions about us. I was really excited to meet you. To see your innocent face with BIG EARS.
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Colorful Balloons? Starless night? A table with 2 chairs? And an apple on the table?
Why am I here? This is the worst night of my life. Why I am here!?
"Dara.."
"Ji.. Ji Yong.."
"Dara I'm so sorry.. I love you. But I love her more. I'm sorry for making you feel stupid. I'm sorry for hurting you.. I didn't mean it. We've been together for almost 4 years and every single day of it is very precious to me. D.. Dara.. I'm so sorry. D..Dara.. Dara.. Dara.."
"Dara!!.. Dara. Dara Wake up!"
"Bommie!" I hugged Bom so tight.
"Don't worry Dara.. It was just a dream."
Yeah. It was just a dream. I'm glad it was just a dream. That was the worst night of my life. Ji yong broke my heart. He Broke me into pieces.
"I think, I think I need to go out." I stood up and looked for my shoes.
"Where are you going?" Bom asked me.
"Somewhere."
"Somewhere? Where"
"Somewhere dark. So that I can think. I can--"
"But it's dangerous!" She sounded very mad. She stood up and grabbed my arms.
"Dangerous? Why? Is it because of the possibility that there might be a stalker waiting outside this condominum?! And he might kidnap me or rape me or do something bad?!"
"No. It's not just because of that." Bom looked down and gave me those worried eyes.
"Please, Bom Let me be free. Just for this time."
Sometimes I feel that I don't want to be a celebrity. I can't do what I want. I can''t go out without any masks or something that may cover up my face, my name, my identity. Bom let me go out. Although it is not allowed for us to go out without any escort. I know, Bom understand me.
After minutes of walking. I ended up playing alone in a small and dark playground. I was there. Sitting on wide swing. Swing for lovers.
"I didn't know there's a playground around here" I said to myself.
"Are you always here?" I heard someone. I looked around but there was no any person I saw. Or a shadow. Then suddenly you showed up. Mr. Park Chanyeol showed up. You were wearing an eye glasses bigger than your eyes. You were also wearing a black t shirt and a black short, a white beanie hat and a slipper. The place was dark. But I can see your face clearly. I knew it was you. I knew it for sure.
"No, It's my first time here. I didn't even know there's a playground around here." I said.
"Oh. I see." You moved closer to me. "Can I sit beside you?" You added.
"Oh. Sure."
You sat beside me and lean you whistle. You were whistling a lullabye.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"Whistling? I guess."
"I know you're whistling. What I mean is why are you doing that?"
"Nothing."
"Nothing?" I asked with curiousity.
"I know you want to be alone and I don't want to disturb you that's why I'm whistling"
"Well, You already disturbed from the first time you showed up like a ghost!"
"You're funny." You said. And then You smiled. That was the first time I saw you smile in person.
I stood up and face you, "And now you think I am funny? What's funny with that?"
"Sit down."
"No I won't!"
"Sit down, you little brat. I don't even know your name. So sorry If I said something wrong."
You don't know about that Channie. You don't know that I was the one that you keep on talking about. The one about that little brat. I am Her Channie. I am Her.
"You don't know me?! How come!? You don't know--"
You grabbed my hand. Pulled it. And then there was it. Another first about you.
We kissed. Your lips are so soft as always. Chanyeol.. I really wanted to repeat that moment over and over again. But I know, I can't..
