Lie || Min Yoongi (BTS)

second

*Min Yoongi's POV*

As I send the message I lay back on the chair. Lot of thoughts are spinning in my head, I don't know, what should I exactly do with this whole situation. If you ask me about something, I always tell the truth, I never lie to anyone, because I know that lying always hurt, and is a sin. An unforgiveable sin. But what can God give? I've lied for a sweet, innocent, and very nice girl for two years ago.

But if we look at this through an other point of view, I just protect myself from all of the pain what my fame causes.

Being an Idol is never an easy rule. You have to be the perfect role model for your fans, and follow your managers' instructions. You don't really have much word or opinion, but after all you can get anything you want. Fame, fans, money, girls, even friends... Well, friends are what I never had in my life before Bangtan. Now I finally have 6 other brothers, but I still don't feel like I'm complete. Obviously, I really love my band, they are my other family, but still... Sometimes they can't understand me the way I want it. I feel like sometimes they can't understand what I had to go through. In the past I was depressed, even suicidal thoughts were in my mind. I never had anyone by my side, I was always alone.

Nowadays these thoughts are coming back. Not always, just sometimes when I'm alone. Two years ago on this day, the same feelings came back, and I couldn't talk it through with Namjoon, I wanted anyone else to talk with me and listen to me.

That's how I found her.

*Throwback to two years ago, on this day*

The concert ended almost 3 hours ago. It was 11pm at the night. Suga just lied on his bed, and stared the white ceiling, while his mind just spinned around things. He felt so tired, sad, broken... and empty. He didn't know why did these feelings come back, because the concert was insane, k-armys were incredibly amazing and beautiful, and their voice gave Suga goosebumps, even when he just thought about it. But still, he felt like something's missing. He wanted to talk through this with the two older one, because they think about things with a clear mind, and always can give him advices, but when he went out to the kitchen, to ask Jin if he has free time, he saw that the oldest is working so hard on this night's dinner. Suga decided it's better to not disturb him. He turned around, and looked for Namjoon, but when he noticed that he's playing video games with Taehyung and Jungkook in the living room, he let out a little smile, and gave up the thought that he will speak about his feelings tonight. He didn't go to Hoseok, because he didn't want to make him sad. That boy is full of sunshine and happiness, and Suga just didn't want to make Hobi worrying about his hyung. And then he thought about Jimin. He knew that boy would be so damn heart broken, so instead of speaking, Suga shaked his head, and went back to his room. During his way he heard happy noises and laughing from Hoseok's room. Suga knew that Jimin's with Hobi, and he was 100% sure about that they are checking those silly filters on a phone app. He smiled, but his heart, soul and mind broke into million pieces with that smile.

Suga closed his door, and fell down to his bed again. He felt the tears in his eyes, but he didn't want to let them out. He fought against them.

Suddenly a weird thought went through on his mind. He grabbed his phone, and typed something to the search engine. He checked all the results, until something grabbed his attention. A website, called WorldwideFriends.com. At first he laughed at the site's name, but then he read more about it, and he started to have some interests.

'What can I lose with a try?' he asked himself as he sat up and took his laptop on his lap. He typed the website's name, and clicked to the 'Registration' button. He took a deep breath as he read the first requirement: 'Full name'.  He started to think about this whole thing.

'Should I use my real name?' he was insecure. 'No, probably not. It wouldn't be a clever idea, plus what if the managers find it? No, I definitely have to do something with it.' he thought as he looked for famous Korean names on Google. Soon he created a name, what made him smile: 'Lee Chin Mae'. Just because Suga is one of the most sarcastic people in BigHit, he decided to put 'Chin Mae' behind a popular family name. Do you know what does Chin Mae mean in Korean?
Well.
It means 'truth'.

Suga felt a bit proud of himself. He's making a fake profile with the name 'truth'? He just couldn't be more sarcastic. He quickly made a mail box for the profile, then filled the other requirements, until he stopped again. 'Username'. He thought about it a bit, then (just because he was confident at that moment) a little lightning went through his mind.

'I'm a genius. Everyone knows it... Then why not?' he smirked as he typed his username: 'GeniusLee'. Then he pressed the button, and he went to his own profile. He searched for a picture on the net, until he found one of a boy who looked similar to him, so he uploaded it as a profile picture. As the next step, he wrote a little introduction about himself (well, at least he didn't lie there), then when he finished with his profile, he started to search between other users. As he scrolled down on the page, his eyes noticed a familiar word in someone's username. He quickly scrolled back up... and then a sweet little smirk appeared to his lips.

'Cypher97? Ah, she's definitely an ARMY' he smiled. 'Let's have a look at her profile...' he whispered as he clicked to the girl's profile. He checked her picture, and had a closer look of it. The girl had beautiful, long, black hair, big, brown eyes, and a bit browner skin. She wasn't that typical skinny one, she didn't have gap between her thighs, but her curves with her hourglass figure were in perfect synchron. On the picture she wears a chocker, a black top with a blue ripped skinny jeans, boots, and a big, beautiful smile. Suga smirked as he couldn't take his eyes off of the girl's smile, but then he forced himself to read her introduction.

"Hey everyone!! My name is Ruby Jade Taylor (yes, don't laugh at me, I'm a living gem), I was born on the 1st of May, I'm 16, and I live in the USA. I really like writing, reading, and listening to music. As you can see on my username, I'm really into KPop, especially BTS, because I find them quite 'Dope'.;) You got it? Did you? No? Right... Well, I think it will be enough, write me if you want to talk! Cheers, Ruby."

Suga let a little laugh out as he read the 'Dope' part. He thought this girl has a really cool personality, plus a pretty nice smile. He suddenly checked the date, then he realised it's the 2nd of May here in Korea, so probably she has her birthday today in the USA. He also checked the time. In Korea there was midnight, which meaned it was 7am there.

'So... She will turn 17 today' he closed his eyes. 'Maybe she will rewrite her age here.'

He licked his lips as he opened his mailbox to wish Ruby a happy birthday.

*End of throwback*

'Hyung?' V's worried voice wakes me up. I look into his eyes with a little smile.

'Yes? I'm sorry, I lost in my thoughts. Did you ask something?' I ask back.

'Yeah... I only asked that would you like to have pizza for dinner tonight? Jin hyung doesn't want to cook tonight, he's tired.' I see a lot of excitement of Taehyung's eyes. I smile at him, and just nod my head as an answer. He becomes so happy, and run to Namjoon to tell him the results of tonight's dinner, but he... He looks at me with death stares. Maybe he noticed something, because the way he looks at me tells that we have to talk later at night.

*****

That was the second part! I'm sorry, it took a loooong time but just because I'm so lazy. BUT!!!! I promise I will be more available from now, hopefully.