Namae

Her Name

               3 Days Before It Happen

        My Name is Miyato Utshi ... Age 17 ... Studying In Engineering School ... No talent in anything, just a normal student ...

       Alarm Ring !!! ... Turn off the alarm ... The time shown already past 6:45 ... “Shit !! I'm late" ... Take bath at the top speed ... Today class is Mrs Aini ... She was known as the most scariest teacher in my school ... "I'm dead if I'm late" ... Take a slice of bread to eat it while running to school ... Looking at my family photo ... “I'm off Oka-san .. Otto-san" ...

      On my way to school ... I came across someone that I like ... But she go to school by car ... So it's really hard to see her everyday ... I stopped for a while ... look at my hand ... “She is someone that I can't never hold" ... After 10 minute daydreaming about her ... I just notice that I already late to school ... I stopped day dreaming and start running to school at my full speed ...

         Entering my class, 5 Mutiara ... Lucky at this time Mrs Aini still not here yet ... I see her again ... She is in my class ... But I never get to know her name ... Because I'm scared to talk to her ... It's not like I'm afraid of her, it just that ... There is nothing between us and we never talk before so it kind of awkward to suddenly talk to someone you don't know ... and she always with someone ... Well she is popular among the boys ... Mrs Aini enter the class ... And the class begin like always ...

          Today I have extra class ... It's really are tiring today but .. it's fine .. since I can see her ... It's enough to make me energetic ... When I am joking around with my friend in the class ... It attracts her attention ... I kind of feel happy about it ... So I joke around more like hiding my friend bag ... But more surprising she take the bed that I hide ... And she hide it ... It take me quite sometime to beg for her to give it back ... Because I pity my friend that he want to drink his water ... I even offer her some cookies to trade with the bag ... This side of her ... Even though it's bad ... It's still somehow cute ...

           The class end ... I tried to talk to her but I'm still not brave enough to do it ... When I walk pass through her ... “you are naughty" I said in silence voice ... But I Wonder did she hear it or not ... I look at her face when she ask question to Mrs Aini ... I guess she didn't hear what I said ... Well it's fine ... because I didn't expect anything ... When I look at her she did look at me ... I Wonder did she really look at me at that time or look at something else ... “Ah .. I forgot to ask her name" I said in slow voice ... The time will come again ... When I can talk to her and joking around with her like today ... “I will wait for the time come” I said in deep voice ...

            2 Days Before It Happen
       
         Today is my class school Trip ... I was so excited because I can have fun once in a while with my friend ... I comb my hair neatly because I want to look cool ... But when I look my face on the mirror .. I know that ... I am nothing .. I put my comb down ... “Why am I born in this body, I want to be notice ... If I was born in handsome boy ... Will she love me like I love her” I said in sad voice ...

        When I board the bus ... My teacher ask me to distribute the bread to everyone in the bus ... I fullfil my duty as a student to do what the teacher ask ... But when I distribute the bread ... It surprised me that ... She also here ... Normally she didn't take part in something like this ... I kind of want to tease her a bit .. so I distribute the bread to everyone except her since she sit at the back ... Then she make a cute face that make me want to laugh ... In the end I give her the bread ... The bus begin to move ... “This going to be great day” I said while smiling ... I really didn't expect her to be here ... But I feel so happy when I see her just now ...

       It doesn't happen just like what I expected ... I try to get near her ... But she keep being followed by her friend ... In the end I didn't get to talk to her ... “Yato what are you looking at ?” someone behind me said ... I look at him ... He is my friend named Yatsuki ... But he is pretty annoying ... “Nothing, I don't have anything to do right now” I said ... “Then do you want to hang around with me, I want to talk to my girlfriend” he reply ... “Sure why not” ... his girlfriend if I remember her name is Bell ... I wonder why she love him ... Oh well ... Love can't be described by word ...

       When we get near Bell ... I notice that Bell is with her friend but I can't really see who she is with ... Then it just like that my wish come true ... She is there ... Beside Bell ... We sit on the opposite bench ... Yatsuki already in lovely mood with his girlfriend ... I kind of feel jealous toward them ... I wish I can be like that with her too ... I take a look at her ... I am thinking for the right word to start our conversation ... But in the end the word didn't come out from my mouth ... It's like that my mouth is already locked with something that are hard to unlocked...

      Time flew just like that ... We were called to board the bus ... I didn't get to ask her name again ... “I really want to know her name .. the one that I love ... The one that I look up too ... What is her name” Whispered my heart ... I have decided ... Tomorrow we have a class with Mrs Aini again ... I will make sure to tell her that I love her ... And ask her name ... I will not failed this time ...

16 Hours Before It Happen

Usually I wake up late every
morning ... But somehow I wake up
early today and it's kind of refreshing...
Today is the day ... That I will confess my feeling to her ... But I wonder ... Usually when you confess to someone that you love you should know their name ... Is it okay if I confess without knowing her name ... What if she think
that I am a stalker, pervert and fake ... Thinking about it make my hand to start trembling in fear ... But I have decided today I will confess and I will not back down ... “Oka San ... Otto San ... Please give me a courage to do it” I said while looking at my family photo ...

Class begin ... She is here today ...
And she look beautiful like always ...
It's no wonder if people like her ...
She beautiful ... Her character is like maiden women ... She almost like perfect ... Every man dream to have
someone like her to be beside them ...
I wonder ... What did she see me as ...
A guy ... A kid ... Or a toy ... Well I
have to be brave to ask her ... Like
always ... She really are hard to get
close ... Always surrounded by girls
and boys ... But I will wait when the right
time come ... And then I will ask her ...

Extra class with Mrs Aini almost begin
and I didn't even get to talk to her ...
I kind of giving up ... But then somehow she sit behind me ... I think this is
the perfect chance for me to confess
my feeling to her ... And ask her name ...
I turn my face to look at her ... “Sorry if I bothering you ... Can I ask you something" I said in slow voice because I don't want other to hear what I said ... “Sure ... What is it?” she replied while smiling ... That smile make my heart flutter ... “what is your name” ... she make a cute face before answering ...
“My name is Nazatul Rise” ... Nazatul is her name ... I kind of scared to say it but ... I have to be brave so I could confess to her ... “Nazatul ... I ... have always loved you” ... She make a face that I can't predict her reaction ... It's like she tried to stay calm ... “I see ... please give some time to think” ...

The class end ... And she didn't give her
answer but it's fine ... I will wait for her to give her answer ... I walk home with a hard feeling ... I wonder if she will reject me ... Maybe she will ...

When I finish bath and eat ... I lay
down on my bed to rest my mind ...
I can't stop thinking about her ...
Close my eyes and try to remember
her name ... But .. why can't I
remember her name ... It's like
I never hear what her name before ...
What is this ... Why my mind start to blurring ... It's like I started to forgot her ... “What is her Name !!!” I shout while holding my head ...

Chapter 1 Finish ~~~