Final Goodbye

Chapter 2

Dear Harry,

I left the journal under your pillow last night, so if you woke, you'd find it. You didn't wake, so I guess I'm the only one who knows now.

The house was quiet last night without you, I missed you. It didn't feel right, so I came here first thing this morning, at about 8:30am.

I miss you, I miss hearing your voice, or your clumsiness. I miss those little things.

I'm guessing your gonna wanna know what happened today, so I'll stop talking to you and just tell you.

When I woke up, it was 8 ish, and I didn't have anything to do. No one to talk to. I locked the bathroom door, first thing this morning. It haunts me now, like something's in there. Maybe it's you, trying to tell me something, but show me some other way.

I got a call from the hospital, saying you almost didn't make it through the night, so I didn't really get ready. I threw on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt and left.

I sat next to you for a while, until I started to get hungry. I wanted to lay next to you, but the nurse yelled at me. She's a real bitch, she doesn't even like it when I talk to you.

Anyways, The boys came to visit you today, and Liam and Zayn both had break downs, so they all left about an hour later. This is so stupid, you're not gonna wanna read this, but it keeps me busy.

"Marley.." Anne said, as she walked into the room. I probably looked crazy. I was talking to you, telling you about last night. "is he doing any better?" she asked, and I stood up, and walked over to her.

"better than last night, yeah he's doing okay. It's been worse." I say, wrapping my arms around her, when I noticed Gemma. She looked heartbroken, Harry. She didn't even say anything. She just say next to you, brushing your hair.

Your mom left to get us food, and then she left again about two hours after. It was just me and Gemma for a while. It was kinda awkward, since we never met. I don't understand why, she seems nice enough.

"So your Marley, he used to talk about you a lot. He told me how much he loved you, and he never shut up. You know that?" she said, laughing a little bit. Just the eaisest things brought tears to my eyes. I didn't say anything back, I couldn't.

She got a hotel room across the street, so she might see you first tomorrow.

The doctors kicked me out of the room at 4:38pm. You were dying. I was alone in the hospital, and you were dying. I didn't know if you were gonna make it, or not. I cried, and this old woman came over to me.

"Look here darling, call some one to pick you up. He might be awake when you come back tomorrow, it's always worth a shot." she said. I looked at her.

"I'm not leaving. I left last night, and he almost died. Now he's almost dying again. I'm not leaving." I said, and she walked away. I don't want to talk to anyone, I want to talk to you.

Needless to say, your still alive.

Anne came back, at about 6. She brought me dinner. Your mom, she's a saint. She cooked a meal, just for me to eat. She brought some for you too, but you weren't awake. She snuck it into the hospital, and she brought some clothes for me too. I dont know how she got into our house, I'm guessing you gave her a key. She left again, to go with Gemma at the hotel, and it was quiet again.

My moms on her way over. I haven't seen her in ages, and I really don't want to.

If you wake up tonight, please wake me up. The doctors said you might, but you won't stay up for long. A few hours, or so. They're gonna put you back under medication, to try and keep you rested. You can't walk, don't try. If you have to pee, I won't judge you if you pee the bed, but you can get the nurse.

I'll be right next to you, in this chair. It's kinda cold in this room, so i have a few blankets.

I'll write more tommorow, I love you, goodnight xx

love always,

Marley xx