The Journal

Chapter 6.

So, hey! I'm back to writing again... I hung out with Selena today. She said she missed me. I missed her too. We went riding on segways in the streets. I don't think I smiled so hard in my life. We had the best time. Maybe this is a sign. Pictures were taken, obviously. Beliebers saw them and freaked out. And I don't mean just freak out, they flipped shit. I didn't mean to make them angry.

Is it bad to be friends with my Ex? I don't know.

I'm feeling so shitty right now. All I can say about this drama day is; 

" It's all about the music." 

It's probably the only thing that can calm the fans down right now. I've been scrolling through my Time line for the past hour. So much hate, so much positivity... I don't know what to look at. 

" Jelena is tearing this fandom apart."

"How can he be so idiotic to go back to a bitch who put him through so much shit?! Is he insane?"

"I thought this bullshit was done with.... guess not." 

"fuck jelena, that shit is shitty as fuck.'"

"I love jelena, I'm so glad Justins smiling again." 

" Selena fucking slays all of you thats why you mad."

I choose to ignore everything being said. I'm suppose to make them happy... if I lose them I lose everything... I don't want to make them more angry at me right now...

I've finished most of the album and released the first few tracks. They went crazy and automatically knew who they were written for. They were about Selena. It stuck out like a sore thumb. Who couldn't tell it was about her? I'm pretty sure she knew it was too!

I'm glad they liked it though. Some of them were mad it was only about Selena. I mean, I wrote what I was feeling... I'm trying to be open with them. Can't they see I only want them to see the good in it? I don't know, but I'm pretty happy where I'm heading too.

Sammie and I fought a few hours ago and now we're not talking. She said I lead her on. I don't think I've ever felt more pain... well besides when Selena dumped me for good a few months ago. She said I used her as a rebound because Selena stopped 'putting out' , whatever she meant by that. It was like she ripped my heart out in front of me and then stomped on it. I think it hurt because I like her... hopefully she'll talk to me soon. 

  See you later...

                                                                                                                                            -Justin.