Mamma I'm in love with a criminal (Dean Winchester AU)

Dear Y/n

Dear Y/n, I'm sorry. I want you to be safe why can't you understand that?  I want you to be safe, I want you to have a good future, one without me. You may think this is killing you, this is killing me. I have to keep you safe. I gave you an adventure and action, but i can't let you go to prison or get killed because of me. I have a friend on the force, he erased everything that had you in it Y/n, have your record clean like it was before you met me. I need you to be safe,  find someone who will love you, you'll find someone who will give you an adventure and action. I need you to be safe, I need you to understand, I need you to forgive me. I still love you Y/n, I fell in love with you when you helped me when I was injured. I took you on the road with me, I couldn't let you kill anybody. I'm sorry you had watch me kill people. I want you safe, please be safe. 

You were back at work, boring. People came in asking how you were and why you left. It was irritating, people yelling at you saying you could've been killed or worse. You ignored them, you went to the back of the store, told your manager you quit, grabbed your bag and left the store and walked home. You slammed the door, your mom saw you walking in.

Your mom: Y/n, you're home early.

You: I quit.

Your mom: Why?

You: The whole town was giving me shit for leaving. Sorry i wanted action. 

Your mom: Y/n, they've known you since you were a little girl.

You: I don't care, I'm adult. I wanted to leave this town but ever since Eric left town, you and dad wouldn't even let me go anywhere, not even to a friend's house!

Your mom: Y/n, there's something you may not know but it's best you didn't know.

You: I'm an adult! 

Your mom: Y/n end of discussion!

You: Just like when Dean was here and told you two that I should stay? Not fair! I'll be gone by the morning cause I'm sick and tired of this town and the lies!

Your mom: y/n! 

You stomped up to your room, you slam your door and call Dean, you figured it go to voicemail and you left him a voicemail.

You: Dean, thanks to you my life even sucks more. This will be my last call to you, I won't ever write to you ever again either. So congratulations Dean. 

You hang up your phone, but you didn't even hear Dean's impala pull up, he was looking at your from baby and he listened to all the voicemail's you left him. He even read your letters. 

Dean's POV: I'm sorry Y/n, but please understand it's best to keep you safe. I'll always love you. Even if you think I don't love you, I do. Understand please Y/n. I want you safe, I need you safe. If you stayed, you'd be in more trouble than ever. You've always been in trouble, ever since your brother left. I just came and took you on the road with me. I'm a killer Y/n. That's all I am. I was a soldier, but i started killing. I started to avenge my family. I've killed innocent people who were related to Crowley or worked with him or his family. Seriously Y/n, I'm toxic, I'm a killer. A cold hearted killer.

 You were laying in your bed, crying. Your heart was broken. You fell for Dean, he was broken after his family was killed, he was a solider who could've died overseas. Dean started to avenge his family after they were murdered.  You then look at the pictures Dean gave you when he was in the military and pictures of him with his gun. 

You: Why Dean? Why did you break my heart?