what would you do if you lost your best friend.? would you cry.? would you stop everything.? would you fail everything. ?
my best Friend died 3 days ago? she left me her hopeless, alone and scared. And I couldn't help her. she was too far in to all you bullies. she left me because I couldn't help her. she killed herself with a knife. and I couldn't help her. so here's my diary.........
day 1 Tuesday
I can't stop crying. I didn't go to school. I stopped eating. and I didn't even get out of bed. that's it.
day 2Wednesday
still crying. can't stop her funeral is in two days. still haven't gotten out of bed.
day 3 Thursday
one more day untill her funeral. I got out of bed to eat. still haven't gone to school. still crying.
day 4 Friday
her funeral. I saw her laying there... she looked so pale... she looked good through... I saw her mom... she didn't look like she was breathing... I gave her a 20 minute hug. along side with her sister. I just cried with them. that would be the last time I would see her. 1 week ago was the last time I texted her asking if her amazing child could come over. it was such a hard day. crying non stop.
day 5 Saturday
it was a weekend. I didn't go to a party. I didn't eat. I didn't sleep. I just want her to haunt me. I wanna see her. any contact at all. Nothing to do anymore. I was going to go to the mall but nobody to go with.
day 6 Sunday
its sunday. I have nothing to do. No one to talk to. Facebook and instagram are boring. I just want to see her... but I can't she's gone.
day 7 Monday
I had to go to school. there was a councler tjere to talk to me. it was everywhere I looked. I jist can't handel it. its been a week and I'm fed up. how am I going to spend the rest of my life without her.?
day 8 Tuesday
still don't know what to do. another terrible day at school. I'm actually getting used to the silent 2 periods I get everyday to mourn.
day 9 Wednesday
today is still the same. its getting better. but when I ho through her phone, or our pictures I break down. I talk to her ex boyfriend a lot. he seems pretty disturbed. he's totally recked.
day 10 Thursday
I was invited to a party today. I don't feel like going. mom thinks its a good idea.... I'd rather not. she might force me. so I'm going shopping in a few. all ill do while I'm rhere is think about her, us trying on cloths, dresses. just her being there......
