Addicted

chapter 3 pt. 2 secrets

Mary's pov
Tuesday. Ahhh, where do i start?
Well after what happened on monday i never wanted to go back to that school ever again, or see jim, ever again. Well, i did.
Yesterday night i got home and cried, i dident eat, i dident study, i dident even take off my uniform. I slept. I felt sick in my stomach and i dident want to go back.

I was late that morning, i walked in through the big glass doors into the hall and there was no one else there, just me. it was 7am and i was walking to class. I walked slowley down the hall way, skiming my fingers across the lockers. I looked down at my feet and wondered what was going to happen today, with jim. I thaught if i dident look at him and just went my own way i would be fine. I just had to pretend he dident exist, pretend i dident care anymore, like he wasent there.
My locker was at the end of the hall and i was almost there when i heard the doors open again behind me. That was wierd, there was no one else in the school yard when i came in. It must have been a teacher or a priest. I dident want to look behind me, who ever it was they were in a rush. i just kept walking down the long hall to my locker. I heard the foot steps getting closer and louder and my heart started to beat faster. Could it be jim? No! I had to stop thinking about him, it was getting ridiculous now hes just a dumb boy!
I couldent wait, i had to see who it was.
Just as i turned my head around i was slammed against the lockers. There was a body on top of me, my heart stopped for a second and i gasped. My arms were pinned to the lockers. It was jim."You fucking snich!" He yelled in my face as he squeszed my wrists even harder against the lockers, "you mind your own business! You dont understand anything!"
He screamed into my face. His breath smelled of cigorettes, and chemicals and his eyes were wide, he was only inches from my face. My heart was beating so fast i tried to scream but all i could do was stand there and try not to cry. I wanted to scream back at him or call for help, but i dident.
"If you tell anyone what you saw yesterday i swear to god! Keep your mouth shut!" Just then mickey, neutron and pedro ran throuth the door. "What the hell are you doing jim!?" They yelled towards us. I looked over at them and i sighed in relife.  "Get off her man!" yelled neutron. "Get the fuck off her what are you doing?" Jim said nothing and kept his eyes on me, breathing heavily. mickey grabed him and pulled him off me, "you gotta calm down man what were you thinking!?" Said pedro as they walked quickly up the hall and dissapeared around a corner. I was shaking so much, i dident know what to do. I ran back the other way, down the stairs and into the ladies bathroom where i sat on the floor in the corner and let myself fall appart. My hands were over my mouth and my knees were on my chest. My heart beat was going crazy and i couldent controll my breathing. He was high, its not his fault, hes probably nice. No! Thats where i was wrong. He wasent nice, he was crazy! How couldent i see that? How is it not obvious to me? I cant belive i liked him!
Fuck.
"What am i doing" i whispered through my tears. I felt alone, i dident know who to turn to or who to tell, part of me wanted to tell someone, a priest maybe. Part of me wanted to forget everything. I dident want to start anything worse, and i dident want get jim in trouble. I knew i should do something. I was just happy he dident seriously hurt me or anything. I looked down at my wrists, they were red and bruised. I had no idea what to do.I knew i couldent do this,all i knew is that it was my second week at this school and this wasent ok. I had to get out of there. Had to leave this school, now.