Look, I don't really know where in my thoughts to begin,
but I know I may not get the courage to write this again.
I used to have the whole world at my finger tips,
but now my mind is clouded as my beating heart rips.
I can't begin to forgive myself for all the pain I caused you,
I doubt you could fathom forgiving me too.
You push me away as if you never knew me,
but I must say I love you with my heart fully and truly.
I remember having you within my arms,
I can't believe how I could have done you so wrong.
A day doesn't pass that I don't regret,
not realizing you were the one when we first met.
Now you're with another guy, happy as can be,
while I'm here suffering wondering what got into me.
You're probably laughing at his smile,
the thought of that shatters my heart.
I know I don't deserve you for what I have done,
but I can't thank you enough for changing me into the man I've become.
I just wish for a second chance now that I've changed,
I'm different from the guy who wronged you long ago.
The nights alone in the dark crying my heart out with only a fraction of the pain you felt,
made me realize just how much pain I caused you when I decided to go.
You will always be in my heart,
I just hate how I realized everything now when my soul is torn apart.
You name will always be implanted in my brain,
I just wish I could be the medicine to your pain.
I really wish I didn't diss you,
you're in my heart and I will forever miss you.
If I'm honest I've never moved on from you my little snowflake,
but hopefully I find something to help my heartbreak.
I don't know if you will ever read this,
but just know I am sorry for what I did to you Miss.
