The war of emotion

Only human

I am a human, that much is obvious.
Me and my friends were having fun in 2nd period, making jokes and some other things, then my friend, Shawna, said that my soon to be girlfriend or I hoped she would be, who has been gone for a long while, was moving futher up and away from us.
The emotions welled up inside, I didn't know what they were, but they were out of line, I fought to keep them under control, they were desperate to get out, like a dog trying to chase a cat.
But I later realized that or, rather I thought that it might not have been real, were the emotion I had felt was, It really an emotion or a desperate attempt for attention.
I believe that it was really an emotion, the feeling of anger and sadness fused together