Today was a cloudy day. Cloudy days tend to be sad days for me. They set a gloomy mood and the rain feels like tears. On a normal day, I can handle the clouds. I can embrace them, accept their sadness, respect god for the weather he chose.
But on emotional days, the clouds are too much. It brings out all of my feelings in me. The negative, the positive, the sadness, the happiness. Today was on of those days.
Today was one of those days, were the stress overpowered the confidence. Every little situation that had a bad outcome was the only thing on my mind. The influence from people around me overcame the positive, happy feelings that I try to focus on and live by.
And it rained. The clouds swirled high above the trees, blowing flower petals through the sky. All of the colors almost made me smile. Little droplets of water began puddling on the concrete where my feet were planted. I just stood watching the sky cry as my own emotions looked back at me in the reflection of the water.
To me crying is like a relief. It lets everything pour free out of my mind and heart. It's like a reset button, to restart my emotions or gain new ones.
And that's what happened. I cried and cried in the rain and darkness. I let it go. I let out all of my feelings about family, friends, people, education, and the wellbeing of others. I can say that it felt good. It felt good to feel the tears race down my burning red cheeks cooling them. It felt good to wash the sadness out. It felt good to start fresh.
Today was one of those cloudydaze_.
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This was kind of a spur in the moment and it's unedited so I apologize for any mistakes. Have a great day, my loves.
-cloudy
