After Yugyeom had left them, Jungkook just stared at Taehyung. Waiting to whatever the latter will say to him. Waiting to be taken away by what will Taehyung would say to him. He knows he can't escape this now. He needs to face this anymore.
Taehyung slowly walks towards Jungkook. He stopped in front of him.
" Can I sit? " Taehyung asked.
Jungkook blinked. He just nodded to what the latter asked.
Taehyung pulled a chair in front of Jungkook.
" I'm sorry. " Taehyung started. Jungkook didn't say anything. He wanted to hear what the latter will say.
" I haven't went to school for weeks now. I'm sorry for that. Instead of talking to you, I've been hiding. I hide because I'm afraid. Afraid that you'll push me away. Afraid that you'll cry. And I hate it to see you cry knowing that I'm the reason of those tears. I hate myself cause of that. " Taehyung look at him in the eyes. " The time I saw you cry, I wanted to dry your tears away. I wanted to kiss your tears away. I wanted to. But my body won't move. Afraid that I'll hurt you more. Afraid that I'll say things. Things that could hurt you more. "
Jungkook just let him talk.
" I know that I must run to you when you walk out. I know that I should. But I didn't, I'm such a coward. I let you go. I let you walk away. I wanted to go to your condo, but I was afraid. I wanted to comfort you, but I was hesitant. I might hurt you if I would. Jealousy eat me up. And I'm sorry for that. " Taehyung look at him.
Jungkook half heartily smiled at him. " Its okay Taehyung-hyung. I understand. "
Taehyung-hyung.
" Yeah. I was so down when you let me walk away and you didn't chase me. But I understand. I just hate the thought that you didn't do anything. You didn't talk to me. Not even texted me or called. I waited. Days turned to weeks. But I haven't received any. I was like waiting for nothing. " Jungkook lowered his gaze. " I thought after a week you'll show up and talk to me. But I was wrong. You didn't. Jin-hyung talked to me. And he said that you haven't gone to school. And I thought that you're still avoiding me. They keep on asking me to go with them, to hang out. But I always refuse. I know that just wanted me to feel loved. But how can I feel that if the one I loved is not there. Not there to make feel like I'm loved. "
Jungkook can't hold his tears anymore. Tears falls from his eyes.
" Those days that I wanted you to be there. To hug me and comfort me. Those nights that I cried myself to sleep. I waited for your call, that you'll say to me that I should stop crying. " Jungkook paused when he felt someone hugged him from the back. He knows who the person is. He cried harder.
Taehyung hugged him tighter. Seeing the person he love cry, it breaks his heart. He hug him to let him know that he's there for him. He's thereto comfort him. To dry his tears away.
" Please stop crying. Please. " Taehyung whispered.
Taehyung moved in front of Jungkook and leveled his face with his. He cupped his face and wiped his tears.
" Stop crying. It hurts seeing you cry. I'm sorry. I know I'm the reason. Please stop crying. I'm here now. " Taehyung said, still wiping the latter's tears.
Taehyung hugged him. Jungkook cried on his shoulder, he just let him. He knows that it will lessen what the latter feel.
When Jungkook stopped crying, Taehyung sat beside him, and grabbed his hands.
" Feeling better now? " He asked, the latter just stayed silent.
" Can I say something? " Taehyung asked. Jungkook just nodded as a response.
" You know I love you right? " He asked, Jungkook didn't say anything. " I've hurt you, badly. But let me love you again. Let me prove to you how much I love you. I'll do everything to have you back. "
Taehyung held Jungkoo's chin to make the latter look at him. " Will you let me? Will you let me love you even though I've hurt you? Even though you've cried? Will you? "
Jungkook could see sincerity with his eyes. But he's afraid. He's afraid to be hurt again. Will he take the risk? Again?
" I'll win your heart again. " Taehyung held both his hands. " Will you let me? "
Jungkook doesn't know what to say. He's lost with Taehyung's gaze. Will he let him? Will his decision be right? Will he let him have the right to hurt him again? Will he?
Jungkook knows deep down in his heart that he still love Taehyung. He knows that if he'll agree to let him enter his life again, he must be ready to get hurt. He must be ready to cry rivers again.
But will he want the person he love to be away again? The person whom he love is asking for his love. Will he let him go? Will he let their story to end just like that? Their story just started. Their story won't end just like that. It won't.
" Okay. I'll let you. "
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