Disappear into the darkness

No. 1

As she lay there in utter darkness, the silence took over. Her thoughts stopped. Her breath stopped. Her existence stopped. She lay lifeless, not a care in the world. She didn't care about her family, friends, or either herself. Why should she? No one else cares for her. Well, that's what they said. That's what; the voices said. Louder and louder until she had no choice. There was no choice, no hope, no belief. She stopped believing, that day. That horrible, dark-filled day. There was no one there to save her, that's why no one cares. It all comes back to that day. Memories, flashbacks, filled her brain. There wasn't any room for anything else. No love, no loss, no compassion. Just reminders. She was alone. Always has been always will be, no one will ever love her. The more she thought the more she hated herself. And that's why she wanted to end it, I mean, what else is there to do where you have nothing to do. But, ending it, you see, isn't that simple. You have to talk to yourself, decide what path you want to take. Is it the right one for yourself, or the ones around you. But she, she didn't have to do that, to her the answer was simple. She had no one, no one to care for her, no one to love her, and no one for her to love. That's why she did it. That's why she jumped. And that's why on the 25th of May 2020 Mary-Anne Kaitlyn, disappeared into the darkness...