This depression is eating me alive I just wanna cut my wrists and die
Why try when it comes to life mine is just a lie
I feel like no one cares even if they do why I ain't they here
No one realizes I'm bout to cry when they look in my eyes
But fuck maybe other people are right I shouldn't be this emotional when I'm a guy
But u guys gotta realize the brain waves I have are so fucked up
But I'm kinda glad cause it turns into music
Yes I'm still sad but it's just something to hold on to Before I fall into the fire that is hell
But I love the pain so maybe it will help, maybe not
I shake like I have withdraws
I cry wondering if I should end it all
No one would take the fall for me before when I was bout to decapitate myself
I was in the hospital bed and people were still telling me to burn in hell
I remember the text I got saying that Im a worthless piece I deserve to rot
At that point I was ready to get a gun out cuz no one would even hear the shot
I was in that hospital for 8 days I'm still upset that no one came to see me except my grandma my sister and my mom
And I was just pullin them down every day and I still do, no I don't cuz they pretty much act like I'm faking
Anymore they just suggest depression pills and a counselor
But before u see me in a body bag these raps will help me for sure
I hope so their the only thing to help me cope though
- just a verse I wrote to let my emotions out
