I give up trying not to let it get to me. Trying not to let it bother it. Not let it hurt me. All of this.. I just.. I don't know. I feel like I'm chained in dark water. Barley breathing. I can't find a way out,my only way out is to be pulled out by the ones who put me here. Every time I think about it,or think about her,my chest gets heavy. I can't stand the thought. It hurts. It kills me. I try to understand, but I don't. I hate not understanding things. When I don't understand things,I overthink things. Now I'm thinking I'll end up hurt. Which is probably what's gonna happen. I bet it. Anyways.. I don't want to think about it anymore.. I just wanna text her..
