Little cakes dream

Little Cakes Dream #18

Even my mobile looks scary after reading the text. I had crawled near the cot and the mobile lies some few feets away.

I could see that he's trying to get hold of me. What if he doesn't want to see me after this. He knows everything!!
Though my heart says he will never leave you, my mind is racing through all the memories from those days.

What seems like my whole life time, I picked up the call and said, "We need to talk". All he said is "we are.. ".

How do I explain to him in words how I feel. But then he reads my mind always right?! "June, I know it doesn't make sense to you now. Please listen to what I have to say. Please?!"

I just nod and later find it stupid when he mention the same that he can't see me! "Okay, but can I ask you something before that?! "

"Anything".

"How's it you are still talking to me if you know what I was or how I was before or may be even I am the same sometimes ?! "

He just laughs at my question before answering." Like I said before, you helped me from drowning. And who am I to judge you when I myself is no good! No one's ever perfect in this world June. If someone's then they are actually faking it. You never have to fake something. Life's all about accepting the fact how it is and bringing out the best out of ourselves and enjoying the life. You've got only once to live. Stop living in past, worrying about future doesn't help.. This second is what is true! "

It makes sense still the darkness inside everyone will always try to bring you down like it is doing now.

" June, you have been thru so much in your life. Sometimes I blame myself for not being there with you during those times. It took me these many years to find you. And finally when I did you were a mess...." I could hear him cursing himself..
"I.. I am sorry June I didn't meant to say that. What I am trying to make you understand is you never chose to how you was in past. You aren't to be blamed. You had fought so far to be who you are now. Don't let the past destroy your present."

A minute of silence from his end. Is he going to continue or I should speak. What's with the universe always revolving between the choices?!!

"I,, Hmmm I don't know what to say.. I tried a lot to move on. I guess I failed. Still am worried what will Evan Indy Mike or others will think if they get to know the truth about my past "

What might he say for this. Why does it matters a lot to me of what he thinks. I feel so connected yet distant at the same time. What is it about... Before I can complete he continues to talk on the other end.

" They love you so much more than you think. Allow them in your life. Feel connected to them. Nothing will change even if they know the truth. I bet they will love you more if at all the truth comes out. It's just a matter of thoughts.. You helped them a lot June. They would've ended their life a long time ago if it wasn't for you. Everyone around you has faced the same demon in different face. You are wasting your time in worrying for nothing. "

" I guess so... " Am I agreeing to his words. He has an unknown power of control and that works fine with me. I could feel more confident. He's bringing the light into my life and I don't want to stop it. Whoever he might be, as long as it's a good change I just wanna flow with the tide..

"June, may be this is not the right time to say but I think I can't keep it in me for any further. You're the light in my life June,you will always be and I wish I could be the same in your's! !
Good night Scarlett. Catch you in your dreams".

Line goes dead before I can take in his words. What was that? !

His message gave me the answer for that.

"I Love You Scarlett,no matter what you were in past or what will happen in future.!!!"