rants & bants

may 27

i guess this is a digital diary of sorts, except its not private

i'm out of school but im still stressed,, how is this even possible

i nearly cut up my finger today with a razor but luckily i didnt. i had a panic attack though

tonight im going to a banquet for drama club. im a thespian now ! thats good. im not as excited as a should be... i've been cleaning all day. my first day of summer.

i wanted to relax but my parents dont believe i was overwhelmed in the first place. i havent watched any shows in a few months, and i deactivated my instagram account to have more time for school. they didnt realize how much that meant to me,, ive never deactivated that account since i first made it, and i still havent activated it again yet. this sucks

also i might do some crush updates in here, because she doesnt have wattpad as far as i know ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ maybe

things are...going,,

im not sure how to explain, but i talked to her half as much as i usually do today and it was ):

but since school's ended (yesterday morning) she's been chatty/flirty idk what to think

i wanna talk to some unbiased friends about it but idk who lol

i dont wanna annoy this certain person and ask her what she thinks

and i talk about it to much with my other friends

oooopsies

if anyone reading this wants to talk to me about it , coUGH COUGH, im open to that too (,: lmao

in other news, i'll probably put this up tomorrow, since my parents decided to be dicks and not let me have my phone all of tomorrow. i'll try to write this week, update some of the fics,, gotta catch up on shows though so we'll see how it goes