The thought of being without him, being alone, and loveless makes her feel like her burial is here and the time to get put in a casket has come. She will never get him back in her grasp the more she cries the more her heart emptys and she becomes dehydrated. Not having him in her life she feels like her soul is gone,ripped from her body. She cries quietly and so peacefully they can't even hear her sniffles as she lets the streams go south. She will die for him she can't just leave him alone she can't be without him.
she doodles in her notebook of what was once happiness skulls and knives, broken hearts and words she calls herself each and every single day. He was hurt as well...she will regret it all he is so precious to her that without him is like life without air, a tie around her neck as she cried in the shadowed corner scratching the walls with plams of blood. She starts to wonder why she set him free, she screams in agony as he enters her mind with his winged arms stretched toward her wanting to embrace her deeply in his arms snuggling her head against his chest, they finally connect. She smiles and so does he then she snaps out of it and shes still in the bloody corner of darkness. Her mind spins having glimpses of the room surrounding the corner as she starts to finally notice the puddle of her own blood.
She writes in blood on the wall ' I Love You Forever Bear.." as she slips unconscious and lays in her own blood last thing she sees.. His adorable face. The people in the next room rush to her side and look down at her scrambling to find the phone calling the police. They yell in the phone with pan-iced breaths " SHE IS GOING TO DIE MAN PLEASE WE NEED HELP THERE'S BLOOD...EVERYWHERE OH MY GOD" she stands over her body, a ghost and pale the tie still around her bony neck, her blood forever dripping down her fingertips.
She finally sees her beloved sister in the light she reaches toward her, running and finally smiling with arms wide. Her sister catches her in an embraced of sisterhood. 6 long years after seeing her in the casket and feeling her cold touch with small caressing. Her sister looks at her deeply and hard she mumbles the words " what did you do to your self?? why is that around your neck?? Why are you dead!?"
She looks embarrassingly at her sister and sniffles deeply " I made a mistake that could never be forgiven" Her tears, now blood, hit the white ground with small thuds and her sister lifts her chin up and looks into her eyes " You are beautiful No matter what and You deserve to be happy." She starts to fade from her sisters soft touch.
Her sister calls out " Look a second chance, Meagan!!" She keeps reaching for her sister yelling almost loud enough to shake the ground " PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO BACK PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASEEEE" she gets pulled back into reality where she is laying in a hospital bed with three dark shadows hanging over her. She blinks as their features start to settle in. They ask her questions from left to right.
they yell at her cornering her making her uneasy "WHY WOULD YOU DO SUCH STUPID SH**T? ARE YOU DUMB?!? WHY THE FREAK WOULD YOU LEAVE US!? I WAS WORRIED SICK UGH" her eyes finally adjust in the dim glasses she looks up at them coughing. She just takes their words like they are smacking her in the face. She whispers softly " No one shall understand me and my ways."
