JOINA POV
Cashier- your total is $207.45
I grabbed my card out of my wallet handing it to the lady.She slid my card and handed it back to me.
( phone convo)
Me- uh uh !!! See girlllll I knew he was feeling you.
I said grabbing my bags out the lady hand.
Patrice- I don't like Chris like that tho, we're just friends.
I laughed because I knew she liked Chris. But why was she hiding it ?
Me- bitch all I'm going to say isss... you better get him before one of these other bitches do.
I said looking into the footlocker store at the mall.
Patrice- I'm not worried about him, they can have him. But where you at ?
I rolled my eyes at her comment.
Me- girl I'm at the mall about to leave.
Patrice- oh, well text me when you get home then.
Me- alright bitch bye.
(phone convo over)
I put my phone in my back pocket and walked into victorious secret looking at the lace underwear.
I scrunched up my face picking up one of the panties, wondering who could wear something this small. I heard someone laughing on the other side of the shelf. So I leaned over trying to see who. I was so embarrassed once I saw who it was.
Me- *smiles* what are you doing here?
He took a couple seconds to answer.
August- I'm just here with one of my homegirls.
He said pointing to a girl on the other side of the room. Was that really his homegirl tho ? But why is he texting me when he has a whole bitch?
Me- mmhm
I said eyeing him down. Even tho I didn't know August that well, I knew he was lying to me. I could see it written all over his face. I shook my head at him. I couldn't believe I was stupid enough to actually think this nigga actually wanted to talk to me. I couldn't say anything to him because we were just friends. I looked at him one last time and walked out of the store.
_______________at home
I walked in the house to a terrible smell. I placed my bags on the couch and walked into the kitchen.
Me-*holds nose* mom !!!
I yelled for her to come downstairs.
I looked at the stove and the gas was on. I turned the stove off and walked upstairs into her bedroom, seeing her Laid out on the ground beside her bed.
I got on my knees and gently tapped the side of her face.
Me- mom wake up
I shook her shoulders...no answer.
Me- wake up mom !
I said getting worried. My mom is a drug addict, My mom started doing heroin when I was 8 years old, so this was nothing new to me. I grabbed her by her arms and dragged her into the bathroom putting her into the tub. I turned on the cold water watching the water come from the shower head. Her eyes opened widely as she took a deep breath. She inhaled and exhaled gasping for air repeatedly. I hoped in the tub rubbing her back trying to comfort her.
Me- shhhhh, shhhhh,shhhhh. breath mama breath.
I was trying to stay calm so I wouldn't freak her out. but little did she know i was terrified of what might happen next. My mama and I always had our differences but I loved her, shes the only one I got. She grabbed her chest trying to calm herself down.
I held her in my harms while she sobbed. Tears started rolling down my face. I laid my head on her shoulder embracing her. I been trying to get my mama off heroin for years. But This time... it was different, what if I didn't walk in when I did ? She would be dead.
Mom- I- Im s-sorry
Me- *crying* you gotta stop this mama.
I said grabbing her even tighter. She cried some more and nodded her head . Was she really going to stop tho ? I thought. I got her out the tub and found her some dry clothes to put on. I watched her crawl into bed and get under her covers.
I sat there at the edge of the bed watching her doze off the sleep. I leaned off the bed gently, and pecked her cheek before leaving her room.
I walked into my room and got on my MacBook and googled some good rehab centers near me. My mom knew wasn't going to stop, and I damn sure knew she wasn't going to stop. This was our last and only option.
*Ding*
( iMessage)
august- Joina ..
Why was he trying to talk to me when he has a bitch ? I swiped the notification back up.... ignoring it because I definitely wasn't for the bullshit tonight .
________30 minutes later
After 30 minutes searching for a good rehab Center I found one in Augusta city. It was only a 2 hour drive from where we stayed. I closed my MacBook and thought about if this was a good idea or not, Was it?
TO BE CONTINUED.........
