Espéra

Dep

She woke up with a covered in sweat and frozen to the bone, I did not mean to wake her only to gaze down upon those bright blue eyes one more time before she did what she was going to.

It had been hundreds of years since Joy entered this world, which means hundreds of years since Annie scared off the one human I loved the most, but after I watched Joy be born I knew I had to start fresh. Watching Joy breakdown when her mother passed of a heart attack was the worst thing I could imagine. I came and visited Joy plenty in those sad months for losing Emily hurt me deep down, but both Joy an I had to move on.

300 years later I'm here with Joys great great great great great granddaughter. She's almost an exact replica of Emily, the only difference is the name. Espéra, Hope is the closest translation to her name, and it's so ironic that I would be falling in love with her.

Who am I your wondering? Most people call me Dep now a days but back when Emily was around people called me depression. I'm just as much a person as Espéra only I can only be seen if I show myself. When I'm around people I begin to hate myself for what happens to them. They get sick really sick some can't find a cure most times even after I leave, being close to me hurts but for some reason people keep trying to get closer.

In early 2026 I went into hiding but yet people sought me out. I didn't want to be around and cause pain. When I heard news in 2029 that Joy was pregnant I came out of hiding, I watched her go through the pregnancy with her mother and the baby's father. I didn't want to get to close to the family. I was however there when she gave birth to her new son, then her daughter. Then I was at the hospital when Joy's daughter gave birth, and the daughter after that and the daughter after that. However I'd return into hiding after that, I didn't want to hurt this family anymore than I already have, but something was different with Espéra, when she first opened her eyes she looked at me, saw through my glamour. I stayed and watched her grow up, now shes 18 and unaffected by my presence. No one else can avoid it like she can, they get all caught up in me to the point where they can't escape their own trap.

It draws me towards her this difference, makes me so tempted to reveal my true self.

As she woke from her nightmare I hid myself.

"Is anyone there?" she whispered.

I was so tempted to unveil myself tell her everything but I waited for something in the air had shifted like it did that night at the hospital.

"Who the hell are you?" she said looking me dead in the eye.

"Wait Espéra you can see me???" I asked

"No shit mr proper why else would I be looking you dead in the eye?"

Feisty, she got that from Emily.

"Well my name isn't mr proper it's Dep and only my family normally can see me." I played along.

"Well Dep that's very interesting and all but again, what the hell are you doing in my room?" she asked with attitude.

How are you supposed to explain to the girl you love that you're not what she wants in life.

"I'm still waiting for an answer!" she demanded.

"I'm going to try to explain in a way that won't freak you out or hate me I just need to find the right words," I calmly said.

"Explain how your in love with me and how you hid yourself from everywhere but my dreams?"she asked

"Wait how the he-"

"For some reason I can see and control peoples thoughts okay? I have been able too since I was little, it came in handy for finishing stuff but I couldn't make friends or anything and you already know that I can't make friends," she said sitting down. "I can red every thought coming off of you okay? So you need to explain what the hell does it mean that I'm like you only adapted?"

Whats even the point of thinking anymore, she'll just ask about it until she knows to much.

"I have to go," I pointed out.

"Dep whats going on why do you leave me now instead of when I didn't need answers?"she asked.

"Because your Hope and I'm depression push your powers even if it feels strange but don't give up it'll pay off." I say as I hop from the window ledge my last thought being a cave close by with a waterfall where I'll hide for the next few years until she finds me.