Missing You (VIXX RAVKEN)

Chapter 2

TRIGGER WARNING !!

Ken's POV:
I felt like there was a sinking feeling in my heart. A couple of years ago, way before I meet Ravi, my mom and dad divorced and it effected me badly. My dad left my mom because of her drinking and drug problem. Many times she promised to stop, but lied. A year after my parents divorced, my dad meet someone else, someone who is caring and more of a mom to me.

But after my dad remarried, he became ill and soon had died. Sometimes, when I visited her, she would always tell me that I was a mistake...
failure...
She asked me why I was born...
And she even said I was the reason why my dad died.
These words had always stuck to me. She said it so much that I started to believe her. She is one reason why I have really bad depression.

When I visited her yesterday she just looked at me, straight in the eye and said, "I still can't believe my failure of a son still has to visit me, you know it's your fault why me and your father split."

I cried.

My mom doesn't love me.

It's your fault..
These three words stuck with me. I began to believe it was my fault. Everything is my fault.

~after the parade~

I told Ravi that I wasn't feeling to well and that we should go home. He said okay and drove us home.

"Hey Ravi?" I said to him.
"Yeah?"
"Do you promise whatever happens to us in the future that you'll stay strong for me?"
"That'll be hard considering that I love you with all of my heart. I never knew what true love was until I meet you. Why did you ask? Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, uh may I be excused for a moment?"
"Sure"

I walked to the bathroom. I know what I'm about to do will shred Ravi's heart but I knew that he'll probably forget about me.

I locked the door and opened the cabinet where "it" was. I promised to not use "it" again, but with my latest encounter with my mom if feel the need to.

As I hovered "it" over my wrist, I realized how much no one loves me. Ravi might not even remember me and neither will my friends.

Then I dragged the blade across my wrist.
One for being the reason why my parents split...
One for causing my dad's death...
And the last one for being the most worthless person on the planet...

"Aye yo, Ken are you ok? Do you need anything?" I hear Ravi from the other side of the door, but before I could answer, everything went pitch black.