Justins pov
It's been 5 months since me cutting and everyday I had been fake smiling.
Raegans pov
I hate seeing my baby upset, it's been 5 months and I knew that everyday he is fake smiling, today was different. And he is due for labour in 2 months.
JUSTINS pov
I woke up went in the shower, but I felt different I felt sick I felt upset angry at myself for fake smiling and I just lost it. I cried as loud as I could, I had enough of faking to be happy I had enough of pretending I'm fine when I'm not and I have had enough of pretending to be who Im not, I'm just a girl who is a boy and is messed up.
So I cried.
Raegans pov
I woke up to justin crying, Justin?
Justin. I suddenly get up, but the babies started crying,, ugh great. I go into the baby's rooms and calm them down, then I go back to Justin's and I's room and I'm in my clothes and I just run into the shower. I don't care if I'm in my clothes my baby my husband is upset so I'm going to comfort him.
Babe babe, shh shh, it's OK your OK were OK,
JUSTINS pov
I knew Raegan was trying to calm me but I had enough, I collapsed on the ground and started rocking and saying, im OK I'm fine I'm OK I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine,im fi, I broke down again and I screamed IM NOT OK, HELP please l.
Raegans pov
I was soo scared Justin was acting so different, I knew he was about to have a panic attack but I didn't know what to do, then I realised if I kiss him he will calm down,
JUSTINS pov
I'm not OK, I'm not fine, I repeated saying that until raegan kissed me. And I calmed down.
I had to break the kiss to say something, babe, baby, I started to cry.
I'm sorry...
Raegans pov
No babe its ok it wasn't your fault, if u need to be upset be upset, I would rather that than you tourtouring yourself by pretending to be happy, it's OK babe I understand totally.
Justins pov
I was upset, before I finished I threw up and I cried.
B-babe
Raegan pov
Baby what's wrong what's wrong
Justins pov
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