I didn't realize I fell asleep crying last night. It's 3 am and I have not eaten a single decent meal for the last couple of days. My tummy is already growling. I went downstairs and look if there is food inside our refrigerator.
"Ah sht Maxine, see? You are not even aware that your family is almost out of grocery" I murmur to myself.
I grab my keys and drive to the nearest coffee shop to grab something to eat.
As I enter, I was excited to order by just smelling the aroma of the best coffee shop in town. No one is in line so I hurriedly order. "One caramel macchiato and chocolate oatmeal cookie please" I got a smile and nod from Gary, the store care-taker.
The coffee shop is not that full though since it's 3 in the morning. While looking for the best spot, I accidentally bumped to a girl. "Im sorry" I said with apologetic look. She is very familiar. I dont know really where I met her. She just shrugged and left the place. I continued walking and found my spot.
"Do I need to know something?" I ask Maxwell trying to hide the jealousy I felt when I saw that photo on facebook.
"Pig, remember earlier I told you we need to talk? thats what I am trying to tell you. She's Venice. I met her few months ago at the club when we celebrated Derek's birthday." Max explained to me. "How come I didn't hear anything about that? Max you used to tell me everything!" I shouted.
Snap! That was Venice. I wish I had known when she was still around. Blood rushed to my whole body. I was full of anger and yes, insecurity.
So many thought in my mind. Whats with her? Why cant I be her? Why not me? I've been with him for 7 years and he is one of the most important person in my life.
Few moments later, I already got my order and as hungry as I am, I lost everything in my mind for a moment. Suddenly..
*beep*
"Pig, please can we talk? You've been ignoring me since that night. You cant just leave me like this. I miss you 😔"
I didn't expect for him to shoot me a message. Right after that night, I tried to cut every means of communication with him. I do not deserve all this. However there is an urge in me to reply to his text
"Max, why? I dont deserve all this. I was there for you since then. When I look into your eyes I can see everything. Those unspoken words and feelings yet you chose to be coward. What's stopping you? Am I not enough?!"
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"I just cant do this right now. Its better if we're off this way Max. Im sorry"
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"I cant. Im sorry"
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