Distant Whisper

10

"Rob, where are you going?"

I asked him as I saw him packing his things.

"Lei. Let's talk" he said seriously

I gulped. I'm nervous.

"Come here" he said holding my hands drawing me near him

"What is it?"

"I'm sorry. I can't be with you anymore" he said

I cried.

"It's just that, binigay ko sayo lahat eh. To the point that I have nothing na" he said while crying

"Rob-

"Listen to me first Lea"

"I love you, I really do. I just want to start anew again. I want to come back to you, without feeling pain. Without feeling so little, do you understand me baby?" He said sincerely.

I nodded

"I understand. Pero rob, babalikan mo pa din naman ako diba?" He nodded

"Baby, listen. I want you to take care of yourself. To be you again. The independent agnes. The brave sandy. Okay? Someday we will meet each other again. We will be friends. Or we could be together. Okay? I am committing myself to you"

I nodded and hugged him tight.

"Don't forget about me okay? I love you rob. And I tell you this, I too. Will commit myself to you"

He picked up his keys and clothes.

"Goodbye Lea"

"Goodbye Rob"

***
I didn't sleep that night.
I just cried

I called dawn. Her phone is busy. I called my mom, my brother. Nothing. No response.

I guess I gotta deal with it on my own.

I'm 29 years old. I don't have a boyfriend. I don't have a baby.

I don't have a life. I maybe famous but I'm not happy anymore.

Ito ba young kabayaran ng katangahan ko?

First it was Aga.

Now, Rob?

I know I can't live without that guy. I just can't .

I tried to call him. But his phone was disconnected already. He really planned for this huh?

I can't blame him though.

He was there habang nagpakatanga ako Kay aga. He was there when I was in my worst state. He accepted all my flaws.

But with aga? Aga saw me begging, aga saw me kneeling. Aga broke me. But I can't blame him. I brought this on myself.

I will pick up myself piece by piece.

I am Lea Salonga for god's sake!

I can

And I will.

I will finish the play in New York. It would be 2 years from now. We were just on our first show. And not yet on Broadway.

I'll come home. Find rob. And settle with him. And that's it.

What about Aga?