lullaby for an insomniac

I reach above my head grabbing my tear soaked pillow. "Another morning," I think to myself. "Another night I've spent, wishing he was here." My mother left my dad and I when I was only five. Ten years later I lost my dad to a drunk driver. You would think after two years without my dad I would start to feel better. Well fact is, I've gotten worse. Lately my heads been spinning and all I can do is think about all the things I could have done with him and all the things we had planned. I roll over and slide off my bed, forcing myself to get ready for school. Every day is the same routine, putting on a fake smile and fooling everyone around me. I just have to remember, "six more months till I'm out." I tell myself this every day. "Six more months and I'm out of this foster family. I'm on my own and I can finally breathe!"

As I grab my back pack and head out the door, I feel a hand on my shoulder turning me around. "Adelaine, wait for meg." said Mr.Marlene. Mr.Marlene's my foster dad, I've been living with them for 5 months now. Meg or Megan is 8, she just started living here one month ago so she's still a little shy. But she seems to open up to me like a sister. Well I've never had a sister but I assume that's how it's like.

Meg comes tumbling down the stairs in her bright yellow sun dress. "hurry up Meg we're gonna be late!" I say to her as she slips on her sparkly shoes. She skips over to me with her back pack and grabs my hand. "Shall we?" I say to her while opening the door. "Let's shall!" she responds.