In Love With the Freshman

First

     Sadly a lot of my memories are gone, time tends to do that. In our first month I met Madi and Josh, one I found annoying, the other was her Ex, I'll let you figure that one out. In case it's not obvious, I tend to be the cheesy romantic type. I wanted to wait till our one month to kiss her. I remember the day it was January so it was snowy and cold. She had the idea to go to this playground she knew because she wanted to show me something, so we went there. I kept looking for an opportunity to go in for a kiss. Funny enough she knew what I was doing and walked up to me and kissed me.
     "Happy now?" She had a big grin on her face like she couldn't believe how hard that was for me.
     I realized then she wasn't like my Ex Kati, I didn't have to be someone I wasn't. After six months of playing a part, being myself just felt so unnatural.
     After that day we started playing games: truth or dare, never have I ever, sex games I found on my phone. We never had sex, but we learned a lot about each other. Neither of us had been that intimate with another person before.
     Despite all this I still missed Kati, it's hard to be with someone that long; seeing them every day; to never being able to speak to them ever again. I had no intention of dating her again, but I wanted her back in my life. Like an assailant, she would creep up on my mind and hit me when I was most vulnerable. Harmony made the pain more bearable, but it wouldn't just go away.