Alone

The last day- Paris 1

I'm so happy that today is the last day of school. I've been waiting for this day since school started. This year, I've gotten a lot more friends and I'm finally getting to be known in this drug addict school. I've wanted this for so long. I mean yeah I had to leave behind my other friends for this but it's definitely worth it because they weren't popular at all. They weren't helping my cause at all. AlI want in life is to be loved and adored by many and be famous and with loser friends like them, I was getting nowhere. So of course I had to leave them.
Now I'm with theses people that are doing things like drugs and drinking and everything bad out there. I guess if this is what it takes to be popular then so be it. I will literally do whatever it takes to be like them. Not even joking.
I did have to leave some pretty fun people to get here though. There was my used to be best friends Tracy. She was insanely hilarious. Then there was this one guy named Johannes and we used to talk all the time. Almost everyday and I was almost growing feelings for him. That would've been a death trap.
My biggest regret though is leaving my favorite person in the whole world. We talked all the time. If it weren't for him, I doubt that I would be where I am. But what's done is done. You can't change the past. Sometimes I do miss him though. I miss having that one person to talk to who will help me with all my issues. But why would I need that when I have all my other friends? They are enough. They should be, at least for now.
On the last day of school, things got hectic. There was so much drama. Everyone was mad at everyone and fights broke out everywhere. All either for "stealing me weed" or "stealing me man!" Everyone here is honestly so stupid but the majority is so I have to be friends with them.
I am glad I have Michael though. He's the best guy I know, which is kind of like knowing the tallest dwarf but hey, you get what you get.
This year honestly couldn't have gone by faster is I slept through it. Ever since I left those losers, things have been so much slower. I know I did what I had to do, but what would I be doing right now instead of loathing all of these idiots?
Probably put having fun at another one of those exciting dinners they used to have. Possibly telling Johannes that I didn't have the same feelings for him then mull that same possibility over later in my bed. Maybe having another life changing conversation with Alex, the former love of my life who, might I say, would have gotten me nowhere closer to my dream but definitely would've been worth it. I remember how we used to look at each other, like we were the only things that mattered in the world. All that puppy love stuff.
But I have Michael now. He's great. He treats me like I belong and like I'm his world. He always says," The world may have their Paris,
but my Paris is all I need." He's great and I love him. My life is much better with him in it.
I was only able to get through this miserable year because of him. He will be all I need. My motivation, my strength, my hope, my love. He makes high school not so bad now.
Senior year, here we come.