To My favorite Person(Sam)

A letter

  My Favorite Person (Sam),

Hi boo, How are you today?
I hope you're doing well out there because it will make me smile knowing your answer "I'm all good"

You know I will be missing you right?
Like I'll miss our chats every day
Like I'll miss messing around with you
Like I'll miss making you laugh
Like I'll miss your "hello sweets
Like I'll miss our laughter​
Like I'll miss our deep conversations
Like I'll miss how your day was

Like I miss you whining and telling me
"Nooo! Don't imagine my self-wearing those Arab clothes" because "You will look like crazy wearing those"
and I just laughed at you( haha)

but oh, don't worry I will still do that sometimes, imagining that you might be still around out there.

It keeps me reminded you, you know? every time I see those things I just keep shaking my head smiling like an idiot while looking back to what you've said.

God, I miss you,
But the tears in our eyes will never be enough reason to revive a person's heart back in life

Not enough to appreciate and show God how we still need this person to be around.

I know there will always be a reason for our "whys" but I can't help it and asked God Why?

Those why's that I know somehow we'll find answers at the end of the day, you know?

We need it in order to heal our broken hearts,
Because no matter how our heads won't accept it, the throbbing pain in our chest can't hide the wounds that one by one making a person weak.

The tears of sorrows that only symbolizes at how fragile person we are
"We do have feelings, a sensitive​ one" coming from our hearts.

Our heart will always be the soft spot of our body, it shows the vulnerable side of a person that we needed to be taken care of.

You made me cry all night you know? and wish God I can return back in time and save your life,but I can't Just go back,
I can't go back.
I don't have the ability to hold the time and I can't hold your hands before you closed those beautiful eyes of yours.
And I wanted to blame you for leaving too soon but I can't just do that
I can't do that to you, your too pure to be blamed for something so tragic that we couldn't stop to happen.
And I just cried all night realizing it because thru these tears it will show God how deep you got into my heart.
To show him how painful it was...
To show him how thankful I am that he saved your life
To let GOD know
That once in my life there was one pure soul person who touched my heart
and made me feel something inside
and his name was Sam.

He was a Friend and Hero to everyone.

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Sam?
I know now that your gone and I know how you're in a safe hand but will you promise me something?
To start your day with the smile on your face, not the frown that you always wore and posted to your Instagram account? 😇( I'm sorry I have to say it)

You know "Absence" is a strong word for me, but lately, I realized.
that your absence would never change how I look up to you as a person
And how I am always proud of you until the very end of your time.

I know your presence might not be longer exist in this world, not anymore?
but the thought of how amazing a person you were will always stay in my memory
and I will always be great full​ to have you as part of my journey

I will never forget the happiness you brought into my life to how you'd been part of my every day
though it's bittersweet happiness at this moment.

But babe, You draw this figure into my blank canvas life and painted a color to what I called black in the white unknown meaning of my life.

You painted me a "Blue" like the color of the sky" to make me feel always be comfortable with you

You painted me a "Green'' Indeed my intuition works on you, that I can be able to smell good vibes and fresh nature from you

You painted me a "Yellow"
that kept telling me that they're always a hope. And to look forward every day to be part of you

You painted me a "Red" to be brave and to never give up,
that keeps reminding me how much I love you, my Friend,

You painted me a "Brown" to keep reminding me how good a person you were, That we need to keep our feet on the ground and help each other in every crisis in our lives.

Your life symbolizes a True Nature of a good heart human being
, that every person you meet you can touch it with the pure soul that we can see thru your eyes

Your Good deeds reflect what kind of person you really were,
A hero in our memories
A one of kind friend in our hearts

"I will miss you, Sam"

So please 'keep safe"
like you always say it "You will do"

But I can't get tired of keep reminding you all the time because I know your life may end today.
I still believe it will continue until the next chapter of your new era.
and I really hope one day we will meet again for what we believed ''Next Life"

"so keep safe always boo"

I know you're in heaven now
and I know this time "You will do"

I know God will keep you unharmed​
He will always keep you safe under his hands

Away from Harm, away from the hatred, away from war,

Away from this unsafe world called
'Human Race'

(Memories of you may fade
But in our hearts our love for you will remain)

TTillwe meet again My Friend

Talk to you soon?

Yours truly,
Sweets -Lovely

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