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It's funny you say, to make you hurt and upset like that

The joke was so funny I started to hide what I loved

I laughed, and shoved my tears away

Giggling I hid in the shadows of my room

I hid who I was, but that's okay, cus it made you laugh

I stopped talking, but you didn't notice, or care

Because you were coming up with more jokes about me

It's so funny I accidently burnt myself

I laughed so hard the knife slipped and cut my thighs

I giggled enough I choked on my food and didn't want to eat again

Your joke was hilarious, I stopped counting the pills

It was so funny I accidently walked in front of a car

Laughing, I slipped and fell off the cliff

In my mind the world fell away, all except your joke

You found me, body spattered on the street

With too many pills in my little tummy,

And so many cuts on my teenage skin

My body was malformed, burn mark here

And a scratch mark there, there, and there again.

My frail body lies on my big bed, limp.

All because of your joke

5/30/17