"myrah?? "
"ahahaha wake up u sleepyhead"
"wait what?? how?? "
"i said wake up sleepy head.. come on"
"okok I'm up but where are we going?? "
"don't tell me you forgot... you promised me to take me to the flower field near the hill"
"i did? "
"jeez vernon your memory is even worse than dory.. come on"
"okok let's go"
myrah jump around like a little kid which is cute...
"cute" i whispered
"what? "
"nothing.. come on you said you want to go to the flower field, let's go"
i took her hand and walk towards the field..
"we're here"
"it's beautiful Vernon "
"yeah, just like you"
she looked at me and little do i know i leaned closer to her with my eyes locked on her pink rosy lips
"Vernon, what are you doing? "
"just let me do this"
i lean in to have a taste of her pink lips which is so soft.. it was a long and passionate kiss but myrah pulled back
"wait this is wrong"
"what? "
"we can't do this"
"why?? "
"because everybody who once close to me has hurt and abandoned me and i don't want it to happen with you" she cried
"myrah.. hey look at me"
she looked at me straight in the eye
"I would never leave you and i would never hurt you like ever because I love you myrah so damn much"
"why didn't you tell me this when i was alive?? "
"what?? "
"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME WHEN I WAS ALIVE VERNON??!!! WHY???!!! "
she stood up and ran away from me
"MYRAH WAIT!!! "
but it seems like she ran further away and i couldn't catch her
"MYRAH!!! "
"OPPA!! WAKE UP"
i woke up and saw my sister, sofia at the edge of my bed with worried plastered all over her face.. After that i realise i was soacked with sweat
"oh my god"
"here drink this"
i took the water from sofia and dranked the whole glass..
"thanks sis"
"no problem.. mind telling me why are screaming in your sleep?? "
"i had a nightmare "
"wanna tell me?? cause you were screaming unnie's name"
"i dreamt of her... we were so happy but then i told her that i love her then she said why didn't i tell her that when she was alive... this is all my fault sofia.. if only i told her that i love her.. she will never be alone, she will never feel depressed, she will still be alive by now"
i was crying hard in my sister's embrace
"hey oppa, it's ok.. it's not your fault.. come on don't cry"
"you don't understand sofia!! she's dead because of me.. she's dead because i failed to protect her from those horrible people..i cost a girl her life because i was too afraid to love her... I'M THE CAUSE THAT SHE'S DEAD"
suddenly i felt a sting feeling on my right cheek and i realise that my sister just slapped me
"HANSOL VERNON CHWE!! GET A GRIP OF YOURSELF.. I MAY DON'T UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION BUT DO YOU THINK BLAMING YOURSELF CAN BRING UNNIE BACK TO LIFE??? DO YOU THINK UNNIE WILL BE HAPPY IF YOU KEPT BLAMING YOURSELF??? she will be sad knowing that you are blaming yourself " tears falling from sofia's face
"now rest oppa... you have gone through a lot... you need some rest, goodnight"
"goodnight sofia and thanks"
"hey that's what siblings do"
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~NEXT MORNING~
i was sitting in the living room watching tv when suddenly someone rang our doorbell.. so i went to open the to see it was mrs.kim
"oh hello mrs.kim.. why did you came? "
"hello hansol.. i came here to give you this box.. i guess myrah wants you to have this?"
"oh really?? why thank you mrs.kim... would you like to come in?? "
"oh no thanks i just came to give you the box because we are moving to Malaysia"
"what?? why?? "
"well we were suppose to move there with myrah because she want to and also we need to move there because my husband got a job there"
"oh... ok, have safe trip maam"
"we will but while we're away.. please take care of myrah and do visit her often"
" i will maam"
"thank you hansol.. goodbye"
"goodbye"
i closed the door and went up to my room to see what is inside the box.. as i open the box it was filled with polaroid picture of us and there was also her friendship ring that we bought at the amusement park on our first hangout.. suddenly i saw a letter with my name on it so i open and read it
Dear vernon,
the moment you got this letter.. i would already be gone... so here it goes ,first i want to thank you for being with me through ups and downs.. I'm sorry if i ever being a huge burden to you.. you stayed by my side eventho the kids at school calling me names and other horrible things.. I'm sorry that i didn't kept the promise we made which is i would never do things that is harmful but i think it's the best way to keep people's mouth shut right?? hehehe for now i want you to stay strong for me and continue with your life and keep these memories of us with you... and again I'm sorry and thanks vernon for everything
p/s: i love you vernon
sincerely,
kim myrah
"I'm sorry myrah... I'm so sorry"
"i love you, Kim Myrah forever and always"
in loving memories
Kim Myrah
21/02/1998-10/02/2017
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a/n:
well that's it guys..the end of 'you're not ugly'....I'm sorry for the boredom in this story because im not a very imaginative person but i try my best to make it better..so comment down on how do you think about this story..thanks for reading 💞💞💞💞
(p/s: some of the scene here is almost the same as 13 reasons why because i think it's a great show)
