Prisoner - Lauren/you

Valentine

Y/N'S POV -

Once again I'm reading my book of poems, your probably thinking 'who reads poems?' well... I do.
Poems just have a place in my heart, I can always connect with them in some type of way.
I turn the page and come across my favorite valentine day poem, how convenient as seen as its valentine day today.

Valentine -

Not a red rose or a satin heart.

I give you an onion.
It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.
It promises light like the careful undressing of love.

Here.
It will blind you with tears like a lover.
It will make your reflection a wobbling photo of grief.

I am trying to be truthful.

Not a cute card or a kissogram. I give you an onion.
Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips, possessive and faithful as we are, for as long as we are. Take it.

Its platinum loops shrink to a wedding ring, if you like.
Lethal.
Its scent will cling to your fingers, cling to your knife.

Carol Ann Duffy

My heart flutters at this unexpected love poem, my mind going back to the research I did on this masterpiece of a poem.
A lesbian couple in the 19th century, that would've been hard with the world thinking loving the same sex was wrong.

An onion, onion?
My mind thinks of the only solution to why she would give an onion as a valentine present,
Love isn't always perfect.
The poem has an unsettling feel to it due to the way the poem uses an onion as a metaphor for love itself. 

I scan the poem as my eyes land on a particular stanza,

"It will blind you with tears like a lover.
It will make your reflection a wobbling photo of grief."

This I feel I can relate to, I have definitely been blinded by tears plenty of times by Lauren.
The way she treated me sometimes upset me, even though I knew she couldn't help it.
Her past got a hold of her and made her take her anger out on me.

Looking into my reflection, I know I've changed since I met Lauren.
I don't know whether that's a good or bad thing but I won't back down now, I'm gonna stay with Lauren until I die, no matter what we go through.

I say 'we' because Lauren's problems are my problems and my problems are Lauren's problems.
The night Lauren's sang her emotions out got me thinking about weddings and proposals.
I don't know why but a part of me wants Lauren to just get down on one knee and ask me to officially be hers, seal the deal right?

Speaking of Lauren, where is she?
She's been out for the whole morning after.
After she woke up, that was it she was out the door without telling me why.
Does she even know that it's valentines day?

I closed my book and got up to get the presents I got her ready.
What I got her is probably the most expected thing ever, except one.
A big white teddy bear and a card, the present I know Lauren will definitely like is the big box of 500 Reese's peanut butter cups.
Knowing she has a sweet spot for them, I instantly ordered I box of 500 to last her, probably a whole year.

I set then down in the living room and sat on the couch then waited for Lauren to arrive.

15 minutes later(Cuz I'm Lazy)-

My head snapped up when hearing the door open and the dog bark.
I got up as Lauren entered the living room with a little smile on her face.

"hey baby, where were you? I was starting to get worried"

I said as i brought her into a hug.
She kissed me on the head, letting it linger then pulling back to answer my question.
"i was out getting your valentine present"

A smile creeper onto my face as I looked deep into those emerald eyes.

"I've got yours, if you want to open them now, we'll there's only one to open but still"

Lauren laughed at me rambling on and walked over to the presents.
She sat down and grabbed the teddy, giving it a big squeeze.
Lauren then went over to the box and put her hands on top of it then looking at me as she asked.
"what is it? Just a box? "

I burst out laughing and shook my head, walking closer to her and sitting next to her on the floor.

" inside the box, silly"

Lauren opened the box and sat there with her mouth hung open.
Her hand slowly trailed along the top layer of Reese's, obviously Checking to see if they are reel.
She turned to me and forced me into a hug as she shouted,
"I FUCKING LOVE REESE'S! "

I just sat there and laughed at her, giving her a light kiss on the lips and saying my 'I love yous'.
She stood up and helped me up with her, Lauren took ahold of both my hands and gave them both a soft kiss.
" y/n, I love you so much and I couldn't ask for a more patient person than you.
I know I can be distant and I know you want to know how I got the scar, and I will tell you... After I ask this one question that frankly has been on my mind for a long time, but I didn't know how to convince myself that it's what I want. "

I stood there in awe at Lauren's beautiful speech, but it shocked me when I saw her get down to the floor on one knee, still holding both my hands.
It didn't shock me in a bad way, it just shocked me in a way that I wasn't expecting it but I knew it was bound to happen sooner or later.
"y/n? Will you make me the happiest women alive and marry me? "

I but my lip as tears of joy fell from my face, I was unable to speak so I just nodded rapidly.
Lauren jumped up and slid the ring onto my finger then giving me a long hug.
My hands traveled to her face and caressed her cheeks, bringing her in for a kiss.

Once we pulled away, she sat me down on the couch and did as she promised, to tell me about her scar.
"so about the scar... I uh- I was never really loved or respected by my parents and my so called farther would always take me out on little trips a-and uh-"

I could tell Lauren was struggling to open up, so I grabbed her hand and sat closer to her.
She let out a deep sigh, giving my hand a squeeze and then continued.
"he would always beat me up, usually in my bedroom or in the middle of nowhere but this time he took me to a hospital... To have an operation, a risky and unsafe operation.
Basically they removed the whole of my womb, cervix, Fallopian tubes and ovaries, part of the vagina and lymph glands, it's called a bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy. "

I did what my natural instinct was telling me to and cuddled into her side as I heard those horrific words come out of her mouth.
She looked down in shame as she said the next thing that broke my heart even more.
" so if you haven't already guessed, it means I can't have kids"

I lifted her chin up for her to look at me.

"we can still have kids, I can carry a baby; just because you can't have kids doesn't mean I'm going to leave you, I love you so much. I wouldn't of said yes if I didn't love you"

I gave her a warm smile as I kissed her forehead.
She wrapped her arms around my waist and cuddled up on the couch with me.

"Not a red rose or a satin heart.

I give you an onion."

Lauren looked up at me as I said my now favorite stanza out loud.
She gave me a little smile and then rested her head back in my chest.

Take it.

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A/n: ooooooooo Lauren finally told you about her scar.
The story is gonna end soon and it's all gonna make sense and fucking blow your mind.
Hope you enjoyed this long chapter, I enjoyed writing it.
I love a good bit of English.

Love ya
Hermy-