4 years later-
"How are you feeling?" My roommate Caroline bounced on my bed
"I've been better" I folded my arms behind my head, my sleeve starting to roll down. I gasped when I caught the scars, pulling it back up, my eyes adjusted to study Caroline's face, but she just raised a brow, shaking it off. Thank god she didn't notice..
"Four years hey?, you're strong" she patted my shoulder
"Yeah" I sighed, my eyes wandering around the small dorm room. I felt awkward, it's been four years, which means four years since she's left completely. But I knew for a fact I wasn't strong. My demons were becoming powerful forcing me to do unreasonable actions.
"I'm going to go out with Gavin, you're welcome to join" she sympathetically smiled.
I reluctantly shook my head. I hated Gavin with a passion, Caroline deserved way better than that sleaze bag. When he was intoxicated, which already marked him down as an under age drinker as I'm not so fond about, he came into our dorm room looking for Caroline, I told him she went out with friends which made him grow angrier throwing the box with the only belongings I had left of Clara's. And boy did I go off at him, which only caused him to throw me on the bed...
It sounds worse than what it was, but I still wanted my first kiss to be reserved for someone special, not forcibly by my best friends boyfriend, and not only did it cause questions from my mum about the love bite on my collarbone, it also caused questions from Caroline.
"Ok" she whispered grabbing her handbag and leaving.
I dug my head in my pillow, I needed to get out of here.
I put on some converse and started walking near campus. I really wanted to sign up for psychology, apparently the students were assigned with patients from mental hospitals, which intrigued me. I learnt that since Clara's diagnosis of Depression, her mini discussions interested me, I felt somewhat useful when speaking to her about her problems.
"Rose, très heureux de vous voir, comment puis-je vous aider aujourd'hui?" Mr Basil approached
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"Rose, very happy to see you, how can I help you today?"
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"Um" I hummed "uh, oui, je me demandais si je pouvais vous inscrire à la-- um psychologie?" I stuttered
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"yes, i was wondering if i could sign up for-- um psychology?"
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He furrowed his brow.
"I'm a little off today" I explained
He nodded understandably
"I would love for you to join psychology, sit and we can discuss" he gestured towards the chair in front of his desk.
I slowly sat down placing my handbag under the chair
"We're having an assessment involving patients from the mental hospital, I think I have a spare file no one chose" he hummed shuffling through the files, that made me utterly nervous, they obviously didn't choose the patient for a reason
"But that is of course because there was no photo with the file" he added
I sighed out of relief.
"Uh huh, here it is" He pulled the file out handing it to me
"Thank you Mr Basil, I'll study the file tonight" I stood up tucking the file under my arm and grabbing my handbag
