19852 SW Harrington Blvd, Burien, WA 98002
March 12, 2013
Tatiana Kowasky,
I know you might be surprised at hearing from me, as I am the reason you are in your current condition. I just want you to know that I understand that these changes can be hard sometimes, no matter the cause. The circumstances under which the reason for you departure occurred, was unfavorable. I really wish what happened could be redone. A do over, ha! We all wish for that, don't we?
Your family (I mean your father, mother and younger sister) requested to see me recently. It took a long time for me to say yes. We met at a Peruvian restaurant that they recommended. When I got there, they greeted me with the utmost respect and immediately expressed their sorrow for my loss. The part of my grief that I had freshly buried gave a little twinge and threatened to break open. To avoid a scene, I suggested we find our reserved table. We ordered food and started talking. Throughout the painfully awkward dinner they kept their respectful tone and stayed away from the subject they so obviously the invited me here to discuss. I almost hoped I'd get through the night without any hastily covered tears. My prayers, as predicted, went unanswered.
I left that night confused, I still am. Should I embrace these people, so desperate for my respect? Or should I push them away because of past actions not under their control but intertwined with their lives forever?
You might think that this means that we are "okay". That's why I just want to clear this up now: however friendly I sound, I will NEVER forgive you for taking what was closest to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't think you are an inherently bad person. I think you were at the wrong place, at the wrong time. It's sad to think about sometimes. We could have been friends in another life.
Catherine Gimmick
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