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We went to the park saying that he has something to say. I followed him and stared at his back. I know this day would come. I know that once we’ll arrive at the park where we first met-------it’s over. I couldn’t take the thought of us going on our own ways. But what do I say? Should I say it’s okay? That I also have someone I treasure other than him? Here we are alone in the park and we just sat on the swing. You know what’s great about today? It’s our anniversary!! and I know with that one year I wasn’t a very good girlfriend. I do stuff that would cause him pain. I would try to make him jealous. I love to create fights between us. I’m not a sadist though :3 . I know I’ve been harsh yet I was proud. I am. I really am proud to have him by my side. It’s just probably I don’t know how to show how lucky and grateful I am to have him in my life and now beside him all I could feel is the thrill that I wouldn’t be able to do those things again. This swing started it all and I know it would also this swing that would put an end to this. We talked about it that we would only go back to the park once one of us would think that our relationship is not working out.
I know and am ready for this day to come. I knew that I can’t grasp the thought and let it sink in. I know I can’t do something but thank him for everything. Thank him for enduring and understanding this childish girl. And just great! The stars started showing when my tears seemed to fall. Now, I couldn’t get myself to cry because the sky just turned out to be so clear.
“Peach,” here it goes. Don’t cry Peach hold it in and smile.
“Yes?” I said smiling hoping he wouldn’t be able to feel what I am feeling now.
“I know—“. I’m just not yet ready to hear his statement so I said out of nowhere. “the night is just great for us to be celebrating our anniversary right?” then silence came in between and I know it starts here.
“Was I not a good g--------“. And this time he did not let me finish probably he could feel the trembling feeling in my voice. I coughed lightly and silently cried inside.
“Please hear what I have to say. I know you knew just how much I love you, that this swing made it possible for me to meet you, to show you how I feel, to take care of you and to love you.” He paused just please don’t say a lot – please say it directly that this ends here. Please I just want to go home.
“I’ve been a jerk and I betrayed you. I don’t want to leave you. Oh pleaseeee”. I didn’t notice that I was crying already. “just please don’t cry it’s hard for me to see you crying and it’s hard for me to make this decision yet, I must because I know I’m not good enough for you. You deserve better. You deserve the best. I am not that person. I could only give you pain and I guess we should e----” I can’t take the pain anymore and I did not let him finish what he was going to say. I’m torn between two feelings. Should I feel happy? Because he told me those things? Or should I be sad? Because we’re ending it. What should I do? What should I say?..
“Was I also not good enough for you?” those just came out of nowhere. I know I’m crying ---- these tears just won’t stop showing. He wiped my tears away.
“You were the best. It’s just that I couldn’t stand myself going against your back. Yes, you can shout at me, you can even slap me as many times as you want. You can make my life miserable, I’ll accept anything just please let me still be your friend. This ends here Peach. Please forgive me for being such an idiot, for being tempted. My family needs me and I need to be with her. You did not lack anything. I was the one on the wrong side. I did wrong”.
I was shut with his words. Something’s been beating my heart ever since he said those words. It’s slicing me into pieces. It’s like knives are inside me. It’s like I’ve been pierced by needles. Then I was brought back to reality when I saw him crying. I need to be there for him. I need to let him go. Yes, he has to take care of his wife to be. He needed to be with his own family. He lowered down and put his hands on his head. I stood up from where I am sitting. Then I squatted in front of him holding his knees saying...
“Hey, yesterday up until now is a history. You’ve done enough for me”. I wiped off his tears and held his face making him look at me directly on the eyes.
“I know it’s ironic for me to say that I’m not breaking down inside but I just want you to know I’m happy that you’ve matured and that you’ve settled things with me first other than I’ll be knowing it from others. I’ve been the happiest person because of you. I loved you yesterday, I love you today and I guess I’ll continue loving you as just a friend. I’m happy for you. Maybe we really aren’t meant for each other but who knows our kids, grandkids, and other generations to come are. Congratulations and thank you for telling me ahead of time”.
He then hugged me and I hugged him back. This sensations gonna end now.
“I’ll send you home first”. He offered yet I told him to go first, he insisted yet I said I also need time to spend alone and he did not spoke up.
He smiled and said “Thank you for everything up until now, Peach”.
I watched him walk away until no shadow was seen and I started crying really hard. I know it was the best thing to do. I know I was the one that pushed him to be tempted. I did not let him feel how important he is to my life. He’s the only one that would always comfort and lower down his pride. I know that we aren’t meant for each other. It’s just that this relationship didn’t work out the way I wanted it to be. He’s gone and I know he is not coming back. I need to let go even though it’s hard. I need to move on and make those memories live on. Then I heard footsteps running towards me, he came back!!. He held me in my arms and that was the last thing I remembered being with him. That was the last encounter that we had.
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