Always [ON HOLD]

Chapter 10

Jades POV:
This was the day. Today I had decided to tell the girls about my secret, I knew it wasn't exactly the best time to tell them but I couldn't keep it in anymore it was killing me.
I had decided to tell Perrie first as we had the closest bond and she was always very understanding. As I got up to her I found her in deep conversation with our makeup artist so I just arkwardly stood there for a few minutes until she noticed me. I pulled her to the side and the then told her the secret, instantly I felt way better. Perrie wasn't very pleased with me though but still she was a supportive best friend, which is why I loved her so much. She then told me that I should tell the other girls but I told her that I was certain that the girls wouldn't understand like she did. She ended up persuading me.
My next task was to tell Leigh about my secret that was still killing me. With blood pumping through my veins I ran to try and find Leigh as the secret was slowly killing me from the inside out. Finally I found Leigh and then I told her as well, her reaction wasn't as bad as Perries but it was still a bit shocked and I wouldn't blame her then I told her that the only other person I had to tell was Jesy she offered to come with me for moral support but I said that I would be okay. So now the time had come the only other person I needed to tell was Jesy and then I would be free from the life ending secret. Finally.
I found Jesy getting ready for our show tonight, this was the first show we had done since our little break before going on our European leg of our tour, she was just getting her hair finished after she had finished I took the chance to talk to her. As I talked to her I saw her eyes water with disappointment, after I finished i gave her a hug as she looked like she needed one but as I went to hug her she asked why I kept it a secret for so long and why I actually wanted to go solo . I didn't really know why I wanted to but I thought I might feel better solo.