Expiring

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I didn't mean to start crying while Mr Barron was giving us a chemistry lecture, I just couldn't help but feel the loss that was following me everywhere. I gently shut my book binder and chemistry booklet closed, trying to draw as little attention to myself as possible. I swiftly shove the books into my backpack and exit the classroom through the back entrance, earning a few glances from students.

I wipe my tear stained cheeks with the hem of my rough woollen school jumper and start my walk to the school nurse. I feel my phone vibrate in the pocket of my school skirt and hesitantly grab it. I read the screen and it's only a message from my mum so I ignore it and i push the phone back into the depths of my pocket.

I look ahead of me and walk bang straight into another student. "Crap, Im so sorry" i say while i stare at the phone laying cracked on the floor. Little pieces of glass fall off of the phone as i pick it up and hand it to the boy in front of me.

"Damn! that's gonna cost at least $80 bucks to get fixed!" He exclaims while examining his smashed phone. My bloodshot eyes are stuck staring at my feet.

"I-i really am sorry" I apologise once more.

"Don't worry about" he smiles as if he knows I'm internally beating myself up.

"You can have my number, you can message me when you get your phone fixed and I'll give you the money back" I quietly mumble pushing a piece of scrunched paper into his hands.

"I'll take your number but not the money" his grin slightly fades after he notices I don't even crack a smile. My eyes detach from the concrete ground and are met with his, his eyes are so full of life, so bright. That makes me jealous. What's in his life that makes him so happy? My emotionless face turns into a sour frown.

"Jakob Delgado, i sent you to collect my files from Mr Barron not to chat with friends and waste my teaching time." Mr Wiles speaks.

"Sorry sir, I'll get them now" Jakob scrambles.

I quickly turn before Mr Wiles growls me and i power walk to the nurses office.
I knock on the nurses door and wait to be seen.

"Ah welcome back Luna, i was starting to think you forgot about your medication" the nurse welcomes me in.

"Yeah because i would totally forget to take the medication that's keeping me in remission" i scoff at her idiocy.

"Wow luna, usually when people find out that their battle with cancer is not as much of a threat anymore would make them a happier person. But it seems to have made you more bitter and angry with life" the nurse hands me my pills.

"You're paid to give me my meds not to talk shit about me while I'm right here" i shove the pills in my mouth and swallow a gulp of water.

"Alright well head back to class we're done for today" the nurse shoo's me out of her office.

I ignore what the nurse says and start to walk towards the bus stop. A figure is already sitting on the seat so i slow my pace and stand a few steps away from the bus stop sign.

I pay the bus driver and find myself a seat.

25 minutes pass and I'm in the warmth of my bed. As i sink deeper and deeper into my bed i sink deeper and deeper into what i fear most. My thoughts.