TALKING TO HIM

DEAR GOD

you are a dear, dear God
i am a lost, lost sheep
i'm floating,
floating in this deep,
deep hard life
i'm about to sink,
sink in this emptiness and nothingness.

i know i'm not a black sheep
i'm just weak and a lost one.
they say you, God, is bigger than any ship of problems, if we have relationship with you, we can't be easily sink and be drowned.

my problem is, i am my problem.
my thinking, my wrong doings.
i pray so little, i don't pray or asked for anything. they say we have to ask something for you, so you can give it.
i don't do that, i don't know why.

i am hopeless, i know you don't think so, God, i just dont do anything, that's why i feel i'm nothing.
i still have faith, i have faith in you,
i know you are God of everything and anything, i just don't have faith in myself, i wonder why i am full of anxiety and why i fear uncertainties and the unknowns.

God please give me strength,a new way of thinking and a brave heart.
i wanna be relevant and be enough.
please guide me to the right path, to take a leap and just believe in me and trust you.

-S! 💭
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