Forbidden Love (feat. Ronnie Banks)

Chapter 8

It was a rather chubby mixed girl , with a missing front tooth . Ronnie turned around with my hand over his penis . He said, "What the fuck , Angela get out of here" Angela said, "Ronnie I miss you" He said, "Too bad, I'm dating someone" She looked at me and ran out the room in tears.. I asked Ron, "What the hell was that all about" Ron simply said,"Ex girlfriend problems" I nodded my head and said,"Well um go get dressed and ill be out in a minute" Ronnie said, "Okay, don't take long." I said,"Okay Ron" He winked. Then he walked out and closed the door. My phone was blinking, that meant I got a text . It was from my sister, it said,"Are you and Ronnie hooking up behind my back!" My heart sank, I called Ron over. I showed him the text .. He said,"I think it's time I should explain myself" I said, "Do you want me to come with you" He said, "Only if you want to" I said, "I will always have your back, no matter what" I rushed putting on some denim shorts and a Lil Wayne tank top with red converse. I pulled my hair back into a high side pony with a white headband. Simple yet cute . I didn't put any makeup on . But Ron was wearing, camo capris with a simple black tee . With black and white nike shoes . I drove over to my grandmas house . I called Tara, "Hey come outside, I'm here to pick you up" She said, "Okay be out in a second" She was being strangely nice. Oh well but I like it . As me and Ron wait nervously, He looked over at me scared . I held his hand and said,"Everything is gonna be fine... I think" He said, "I hope, if not we still have each other though" I said,"Yeah that's true" I seen Tara walk out and I quickly took my hand away from Ron's. Ron went to go help her with her bag . When she got in the car, she told me that grandma isn't feeling well.. I glanced at Ron in the mirror, his face tightened and he looked out the window nervously .. We went back to the house . Tara took a nap, Ron and I waited for her to go to sleep. Ron pulled me in the closet to talk . He said, "I don't know if we should tell her now with everything going on right now with your grandma" I said, "No we just need to get it over with" He nodded shamefully. I said,"Let me talk to her first, okay" He nodded again . We both walked out quietly and Ron went upstairs.. I touched her gently on the arm & said with a fake guilty smile,"Hey sleepy head, can I talk to you for a minute.. Sorry to awake you but it's important" She stretched from her nap and sat up with her crazy bed head, she ran her hands through her hair to fix it but it was still a mess but cute at the same time. I started off by saying, "Soo you know how Ronnie & I ... Umm are doing this whole project thing" She nodded . I continued talking, " Yeah um we don't have a project. We've been having a secret relationship behind your back & I feel really bad. I wish I would have never done this to you" She just sat there, not anger or peace on her face .. She said, "Where's Ronnie" I called Ron down . He came down slowly with his head down . He sat on the other side of Tara.. Ronnie said, "Listen baby I'm so sorry, I know your pissed right now so go ahead and yell but I still love you deep down inside.." Tara started to tear up.. I told Ronnie to switch me spots. I wrapped my arms over her, she hugged me & cried long and hard for about 6 minutes straight she balled her eyes out .. I kissed her on the forehead and cried with her. I felt so bad, I don't even wanna live anymore.. Ronnie slowly walked over and Tara calmly said, "If you love my sister.. you can have her, she deserves you but don't expect me to be your friend anymore , anytime soon." I looked at her in shock, "Tara, you don't mean that.." She said,"Trust me, I mean it.. You work so hard in life and its time you're rewarded with a perfect boyfriend" I wiped her tears away and hugged her tightly and said,"Tara we need to have a talk, Ron come back later" Ron nodded and waved at Tara but Tara didn't look at him. When Ronnie left Tara told me, "I'm never going to forgive you for this.. But I guess I'll get past it just maybe" I told her, "It feels wrong to date your boyfriend tho" She said, "No,No it's fine. I love you & this is the right thing for you" I still felt really guilty .. & I feel like I ruined everything for my sister in her relationship. Tara said, "She's going back over to grandmas for tonight." Her friend Corey drove her. I went upstairs and texted Ronnie to come over.. I looked at myself in the mirror, Am I really that stupid? Why did I have to ruin everything.. I'm stupid, ugly,fat and probably going to hell for this. I hate myself now.. I looked at a razor sitting in the cabinet rack . I picked it up and held it to my wrist.. I kept saying to myself, "Your stupid,ugly,fat and no one likes you" Before I knew it I sliced my wrist, I yelled in pain and stared crying hard. I cut again and again then i took a hand full of pills and swallowed without water I coughed and nearly chocked, I continued to cut and yell in pain. Till someone cried my name and took the razor from me. Everything was blurry, but I couldn't ever forget Ron's voice. I knew it was him instantly. He kept yelling, "Stay with me beautiful" But then, I couldn't hear anything or see anything...
<< Lots of action in this chapter hope you liked it, also this is my last author note. & Dianna doesn't die btw>>