After I nodded my head yes telling Gilinsky that I was ready he ripped off my shirt and quickly reconnected our lips! I could actually start to say I am ready for what's about to happen and I think I was ready when I wen out with him for the first time knowing how long I had the biggest crush in him, I was in love with him a long long time ago!
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We laid next to each other breathing quite heavily when he turned on his side making me face him! He kissed me slowly and I kissed back! I truly did love him with all of my heart that was left! After Jack broke up with me and I stopped talking to him I was ruined! It hurt me too much knowing that he would do something like that and not tell me! I mean if he loved me enough shouldn't he had at least told me because he felt guilty? I left Johnson and Katy alone so many times and I didn't suspect anything! How could they do that to me for so long? She was my best friend! And to be honest I haven't talked to her in forever either! Maybe that's a good thing because if I saw her or heard from her after earlier today I would probably rip her head off! No joke! I tried my hardest to be good to him! After he left I was in so much pain that the only way I could take my pain out was physically! I thought that the pain would slowly ooze out of my heart like my blood did on the sides of my ribs! I cut myself there because I figured it would be harder for people to notice them but that was 3 years ago and they were pretty much gone now! The only people who helped me through those times were my now best friends Taelor and Mack! They were actually coming over tomorrow night! They are staying for Spring Break since they live a few hours away from me! They still keep in touch with Katy but she's technically out of my life right now!
Authors note:
Hey guys! I will probably post a lot earlier tomorrow since it's spring break and I won't have anything better to do with my life! Love you guys! Comment and tell me if you like my fanfic or not please! 😘
