Chapter Thirteen: Void
Midnight struck and the two were causally chatting online as usual but were both very hyper this time.
Hysterically laughing, Sakura typed, xD It's funny isn't it? I feel like I should be saying sorry for all those times I punched you and attempted to kill you haha.
He chuckled and typed back, Likewise. Sorry I stabbed you that one time. *chuckles*
Still laughing like a maniac, she typed, We are so horrible, we shouldn't be joking about this xD haha. I'm hyper! Haha. :3
Yes you are. (;
... I just thought of something disturbing. O.O
Do tell. (; He urged.
I wonder what we will look like when we are elders. O_O
I'd still be a sexy mofo. (; He joked and started to laugh.
Whoa, you must be hyper too! :0 haha. I told you to stop drenching your bowl of cereal with sugar! XD But nooooo you wouldn't listen and now you're like this! Geez! Sakura joked, choking on her own laughter, and she then added, And you're still so full of yourself though. -.- xD You're probably going to have a double-chin, I guarantee it!
I highly doubt that... He replied and added, Considering you and I will be busy all the time, if you know what I mean. (;
Sakura knew exactly what he meant and her cheeks flushed of crimson-red.
He meant they would be busy...doing...s...e...x...
Sakura twitched and briskly typed, CHA! YOU'RE SUCH A PEVERT YOU CREEP! AND THAT'S DISGUSTING! WHY THE HELL WOULD I DO IT WITH YOU WHEN WE WOULD BOTH BE FREAKING OLD FARTS?!
Trust me, you wouldn't be able to resist me no matter what age. (;
She rolled her eyes and huffed. Pft. Oh please. Go shove your damn ego up your ass!
Only if you shove it up for me. (;
O/O WHAT?! YOU CREEP! IN YOUR DREAMS!
Mmm... Okay. (;
O_O ... WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! I love you! XD
Me too, babe. (;
Don't call me that! She hissed.
But I love you! (;
-.- You're crazy...
Crazy in love? (; He playfully asked.
Sakura twitched. Gosh, when we fought, I never thought that YOU would be my freaking future boyfriend. O_O
Well, fate works in mysterious ways. (;
That reminds me... ... There is something I've been meaning to ask you for awhile now... Why... Why did you kill yourself when we fought? ... You could have easily avoided your Grandma's attack... Why... Why did you give up? She questioned while frowning.
To end all the pain.
She froze, utterly bewildered and shocked, and her eyes widened enormously.
He continued on, A year ago, I awoke in my human body, somehow alive again, and I dreaded every waking moment of it. Disgusted, appalled, repulsed, nauseated... There is no amount of words to describe the intensity of my hatred towards being human once again. I dearly missed my puppet body that I worked so hard to finally obtain...
I thought I would rather be dead than be a mere human. I hated being contained in my pathetic human body and my existence now seemed pointless. Frustration whelmed up inside me and I would constantly harm myself everyday.
I would smirk at seeing blood ooze out of my body, wanting to die... Emotions were futile when it came to me. I was numb, empty, heartless... Nothing filled the void in my heart and I just became consumed by emptiness. I was unable to feel any actually raw emotions of joy.
I always questioned myself why I was given an second chance to live again, wondering what was the point of my existence, and back then I never seemed to find the answer.
Then one bitter day... Ninjas from the hidden leaf found me and turned me in. I didn't resist because I just didn't care. I wanted to rot, disintegrate, perish, vanish... I would do anything to leave this earth... To leave this body...
Those bastards tortured me in prison but I felt absolutely nothing... No matter what their cruel punishment was. My face remained emotionless and I was pretty much a walking corpse.
They pitied me. They fucking pitied me. That's why they let me go and allowed me to stay in this abandoned house in this fucking village. I was no threat to them anymore and I thought none of them were even worth killing. I could have easily killed all of them in an blink of an eye but I choose not too...
Puppets were the only thing that brought me comfort in this world and it always has been my main focus in life. Love was meaningless and I thought humans were just a waste of space.
I've grown bitter over time and felt as if I was in a nightmare. Forbidden to ever wake up. Never allowed to run away. Being fucking forced into this brutal absence of unhappiness...
Then that day happened... The day when I finally talked to you. One of the ninjas who visited me often, advised me about this new website, and that I should give it a try.
I merely laughed at that pathetic suggestion and thought I should give it a try to see the stupidity of this world.
I don't know whatever possessed me to talk to you that day...but I don't regret it.
Sakura, you're the one who filled that void in my heart, and I was able to actually feel raw emotion.
I had awoken from the nightmare and didn't have to run but I took control of my life. I've finally escaped and broke out of the darkness.
All my hatred was replaced with love because of you. All because of you...
I believe you were brought into my life for a reason and that YOU are the reason I was given a second chance of life.
You healed me...not just physically...but emotionally.
And I cannot thank you enough...
I craved to feel for so long and now I finally can.
Thank you.
He finally finished.
...Tears drenched her keyboard...
Author Note: Sad chapter, almost cried ;( well, I was listening to this sad song. I always listens to songs whenever I type my chapters xD Anyways, thank you guys so much for everything, and I shall update as soon as I can! Please review and thank you! :D Bye!
