Life is full of experiences, and the lesson learned from them are eye opening. The process of these experiences are shit, I've been through enough, but it made me the person I am today, a strong independent and careful person to be exact. I am strong in surviving this much of events that I would not call traumatic, but rather disturbing events, and I am independent in not needing anyone to tell me what's right or wrong, I can clearly see the difference between them and I'd like to consider my self a pro at detecting it. Some people have tendencies to show their true motives, I feel like I can somehow pick it up, for example watching a video of someone, and that someone expresses let's say a feeling of joy and everyone buys it, but I do not, there's no ounce of joy. Maybe it's just predictions or nonsense, however it is true.