i can't remember who i am. evan thought. everything's a blur inside his mind.
being the transgender shorty he is, he's bullied quite often. he had a crush,not on a girl,but a boy. the beautiful connor murphy.
connor probably doesn't like him back.
he walked to school,depressed as usual.
he got shoved around the first five minutes,and then shoved into his crush.
connor nervously blushed.
'' ev? ''
'' ohhhhmigosh i am SO sorry i'll just stay away from you for the rest of the day-- ''
'' EVAN. ''
'' y-yea? ''
'' you don't have to. '' connor said softly.
END OF THE DAY
'' .. ''
evan pulled everything girly out of his closet.he was going to destroy it all.
'' imitation is the biggest way to show admiration...right? ''
he threw the clothes into the trash.
he went back to his room,putting on a highschool football jacket he got for himself.
he wiped the lipgloss off of his lips,mascara tear stains rolling down his face.
HE STILL LOOKED LIKE A GIRL.
he threw everything off of the bathroom counter.
he smacked his fists onto the counter.
heidi walked in on evan and realized what was happening.
she called connor
'' hello...? ''
'' connor,hurry,please.. ''
'' what's happening heidi? ''
'' EVAN'S HAVING THE BIGGEST PANIC ATTACK HES HAD IN HIS LIFE! '' she yelled into the phone.
'' ...oh god. ''
'' ill be right there. ''
'' thank you,connor. ''
evan rummaged through the bathroom cabinets,and found some diet pills.
he poured them into his hand.
connor ran to evan's house,running to the bathroom.
evan poured the pills into his mouth.
