Stay the night (Saul Hudson Fanfiction)

Way Out Of Line...

Tommy Lee, the most beautiful man I've ever seen, the man I've loved since I was sixteen years old.
He was just so sensitive, I always hurt him. I shouldn't talk to the guy at the register...

I shouldn't talk to guys when he's not around...

At least thats the bullshit he filled my head with. I wanna hate him. I wanna bury him six feet under...but I love him too much. I let him do it. What can I say? I'm doomed to live in this on going purgatory of abuse...

I just wanna get away.

"Babe, were out of milk and eggs."
I lied. We had a full carton of eggs, and half a gallon of milk.
That is, before I dumped them. I needed a reason to get out of this damn house.
"Go get some idiot"

Tommy said as he rolled his eyes. I smiled down, knowing I was gonna escape, even if it was for only thirty minutes. I walked up stairs and down the hall to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me, leaned against it and let out a small sigh.

I didn't want to, but I walked over to the mirror and scanned my face. I looked at my tired blue eyes, my bruised cheek. I used to be beautiful, youthful, happy and healthy. Then I met Tommy. Everything is down hill from there. I got on drugs and started drinking more. I sighed thinking of the good ol days. I had a best friend named Axl once. He had promised me we would run away together, just me, him, and Saul. Oh Saul, he was more than a friend to me, he was my first lover. I suppose the reason all we did was have sex is because, well, I have Mommy and Daddy issues.

I had an okay life. My dad walked out on me and my mom didn't care about me at all. That was okay to me. I never really knew either of them. My mom was more or less always living in some hotel, probably getting fucked by a celebrity of some sort. Saul always stayed with me.

I remember the nights he would show up at my door, he didn't have to say a word. I knew what was going down, and he knew how to numb me just right. We had had this tension, this chemistry. Fireworks, if you will. The day we met was the day I knew he had to be mine. I sold everything to persue this man, and then my mom shipped me off to L.A.
Currently, I'm living in a beautiful home. Nothing beautiful happens here. I just wanna be loved like Tommy used to love me. He used to treat me like a queen, maybe he just got bored. Ha, that's what all little boys do. They get so bored of playing with the same toys, so they keep finding new ones. I looked back up at myself, and began to put on some makeup.
I applied minimal makeup, but just enough to hide the dark circles, and the bruise. I put on some winged eyeliner and false lashes, and walked out the door and back down the hall.

When I reached the kitchen I saw Tommy asleep. I admired how innocent he looked when sleeping. I quickly looked away and grabbed the keys to my Dodge Charger. I walked out the door and into the garage. The door slowly opened and I walked towards my car. I got in and quickly sped off knowing if I didn't hurry, Tommy would kill me. I shouldn't have to be afraid of the man I love... Oh well.