My Teacher Is My Mate and I'm A Mermaid

Past

Hi, I'm Anastasia Steele I classify myself as a freak. Ok I know you might be confused but let's start with what happened to me when I was 10.
Flashback-
Me my mom and dad were getting ready to go to a family reunion at my Nanas. I was wearing a blue dress that went to above my knees and I was wearing an orange headband.  When we got there everyone was there I was even surprised to see my cousin Grace and her boyfriend Dean. Me and Dean act like brother and sister we were so close and I missed him so I ran over and jumped into his open arms and yelled "Dean!! I missed you"
He said "I missed you to Kitty" everyone calls me Cat, Kitty, Kit Kat, or as my dad calls me Kitten. Dean set me down and then everyone talked and ate together until it was time to go home, but Grace told me that I could stay with her and Dean at her parents house so I went up to my parents and asked "Mommy and Daddy can I stay at auntie and uncle's place with Grace and Dean" with puppy dog eyes
Mom smiled and said "Ok sweetie go ahead" I gave her a big giant hug and ran to grace and Dean. We then headed to Graces parents house.
At house-
When we get there we sit down and watch movies on their three-person couch. Dean was in the middle and I was on the left and Grace on the right. At the middle of one of the movies, Grace said that she had to go to the bathroom. Right as Grace left the room Dean lifted me onto his lap at first I was fine with it and giggled because I'm used to sitting on his lap but then I got uncomfortable because he started kissing my neck and I said "Dean stop" but he didn't and then he tried to take off my dress I tried to wiggle out of his grip but I couldn't get out of his grip he got my dress off and he threw me on the couch and got on top of me as fast as he could and he started taking off his belt I tried to scream but his hand went over my mouth but then I bit his hand and screamed with all my might and yelled "Grace, Auntie, Uncle come help me. Dean get off!!" a couple of minutes later Uncle came running in and he saw me crying underneath Dean and he came and threw Dean off of me and Grace came over to me and tried to comfort me and I was saying "I'm sorry Grace I messed up your relationship with Dean. I'm sorry I ruined your life. I'm a freak I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry".
Grace grabbed my face and said " Anastasia this is not your fault that Jack Rabbit was turned on by you. It was not your fault it is my fault for bringing him into your life 'IM' sorry"
I said "no it not your fault its mine. Maybe I did something to attract him to me it's all my fault" all she did was shush me.
End of flashback-
Ever since that happened I barely ever eat anymore and I get lucky if I get four ours of sleep because of nightmares. a week after that happened I felt worthless, weak, and that I did not deserve to be here so my parents decided to send me to a self-defense class so I can feel strong and give be a purpose to be here and mostly they were scared I would harm myself. so I went to self-defense classes until the beginning of December last year. now let me tell you the story of why I left self-defense class.
Flashback-
Today is December second and in at self-defense class. My self-defense teacher Ben suddenly can out of his office and said: "Anastasia come into my office please".
So I got up and went to his office. When I got there I saw him sitting in his office chair with an open chair next to him that he was gesturing me to sit in so I went over to the chair and before I sat down I moved it a little bit away from him because it was too close for my comfort. He got up shut all the curtains, shut the door, locked it, then sat back in his chair. He started talking in a seductive voice. "Ana Ana Ana you have been a very naughty girl"
I shivered in fear  and said: "What do you mean?" In a whisper.
He said "I mean this" He stood up from his chair and lifted me up from my chair and laid me on my back on his desk.
I gasp and said "get off of me Ben" all he did was chuckle and he took of my outfit but something clicked in my mind and it was saying I'm not weak fight back. So I kick him in the crotch and side kicked him so he was on the ground. That was not a good I idea because what he said next frightened me.
He said," Ana you have to be granted with a punishment" with an evil smirk. He started hitting me, kicking me in the ribs, and slapping me. Until I got the strength to get up and grab one of his big books off of his desk and ram it in his head but not hard enough to kill him I ran out to the secretary I didn't care if was in a bra and underwear because I wanted to get out of there. I told her what happen while crying and she called the police and my parents.
End of flashback-
After that happened I went to the hospital but only on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night. the doctors were surprised I healed up so fast but they did not know my secret and that secret is that I was born a mermaid.

A.N-
I hope you like this beginning better and the two almost being raped parts is what happen to me in the past so all of the depression stuff I will be talking about it is what is happening to me now I hope you liked the beginning I will update tomorrow I promise see you later