Another Way...

A new beginning...

summer 2k17, after getting my bachelor degree, and after a lot of thinking.. i have finally decided to be bold enough to go complete my higher education in a foreign country.. a country where i have absolutely no one, a country that speaks a whole different language, a country with a different culture, different environement, and different language... but also a country of peace,   hard-work and serenity.. the kingdom of the NETHERLANDS.

 A whole new challenge was waiting for me... but i was willing to take the risk! And with only a few days left, and everything almost ready, my feelings started to get all over the place.

At one point i really wanted to go to a new place and have a fresh start in which i can be independent and only count on myself.. but in another point, i wasnt 100 percent ready to leave my family, friends, and everything behind and go to a whole new place.. but i knew i had to.. it was for my best .. and sometimes we have to make some decisions that we dont like, but we know they're the right thing to do.

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(the day before my flight naar Eindhoven)

<<moom have you seen my favorite mug?? i've looked for it everywhere and theres noo way im going without it! >> i shouted from the kitchen while still looking into the dishwasher .

<< it must be on the shelf Reem! look at the top shelf it must be sitting in there..>> shouted back my mother from her room. 

<< oh! found ittt! thanks mom! >> i added while picking up the coffee mug and running back into my room to finish packing my suitcases for my flight tomorrow..

and as i quitly packed everything into my pink suitcases,, all sorts of thoughts came into my mind.. and my feelings were all over the place.. 

is this really it? am i gonna be able to live on my own ? what if i failed? or what if i got carried away?

i shoke my head quickly as tried to put all my thoughts together .. << everything will be alright Reem! you can do it!!! now all i need is aa god shower and a good night sleep >>  i said trying to calm myself. and indeed i went to take a shower, had dinner with mom, and went to bed... trying to imagine what is it gonna look like in there...