Dear Love [COMPLETED]

Dear Love

Hi,
It's Me Phiona,

I'm sure you've heard of me before, maybe not as much as I've heard of you but at some point you have.
I never totally understood you, I still don't and I don't think anyone will understand you totally, Ever.

I thought I met you once, but looking back now I'm not too sure I did. There was a boy, he claimed to have known you and he wanted to share himself with me and also share you with me. I was so fascinated with the idea of you or what I thought was you, that I went ahead, seeking but never finding you.

I thought maybe I would find you in the words "I love you". Funny huh?

I heard your name in that statement but I never felt you, never experienced you, never witnessed you, instead I met your enemy, your opposite; Hate.

It was raw and powerful, it never hid itself from me like you did. I didn't have to search for it, it was right there, everywhere you weren't present.

It's purpose I believe was to infiltrate my bones, my very being until I was just like it. It worked. Soon I was it's exact replica and the one thing I hated the most was you because in my journey to find you I found hurt, dishonesty, and pain. I have the scars to prove it.

Soon after however, I met someone else who changed everything, even my hatred for you.
I got through the first stage of finding love and that was by first loving myself.
It got easier then, my Pursuit of Happyness.

I have since been waiting on you to show yourself when and with whom you see fit.

For love is patient, therefore I wait.