Opening the Sky: Howl x reader

The Fight

I was sitting on the couch reading a book Howl had picked up for me while he was out on business. He was starting to not be at home like he used to and it was bothering me, but I knew there was nothing I could do about it. So I sat on our couch reading the book, waiting for him to return. After a while he eventually came through the door, surprisingly sad.
"Howl what's wrong" I asked slightly scared.
"Nothing's wrong I'm fine, just business" he responded not looking me in the eye.
"Howl look at" I said walking over to him.
He didn't look, I grabbed his chin and made him face me. That's when he broke down into tears right before me. He fell into my arms, as we both sunk to the floor.
"Howl what's wrong" I asked, looking at him pleadingly.
"I can't" he sobbed.
"What" I was confused.
He cried for awhile and then finally composed himself before talking to me.
"You must leave" he said sternly.
"What do you mean leave" I asked.
"I can no longer be with you (Y/N)" he responded looking away from me.
"What" tears brimmed my eyes.
I gulped down the air I need and tried to gain my confidence.
"No" I responded.
"What" he questioned.
"I'm not leaving you and I'm not letting you leave me" I answered.
He looked at me, and for a long moment there was silence. It was terrifying and unbearable, then he ran to his room and slammed the door closed. I ran after him and banged on the door.
"Howl you can't run away, I'll never forgive you" I screamed.
He didn't responded. I kept banging on the door hoping wondering what he was doing. Then I felt the tears escape and with every hit of my fist more and more tears came down. The suddenly I was no longer hitting the door, but I was beating down on Howl's chest. I was crying and screaming at him.
"Look at me" he said.
I didn't I kept hitting him.
"Look at me" he repeated.
I kept hitting and crying not responding.
"(Y/N) look at me" he said trying to control himself.
I still have no response.
"(Y/N) I said look at me" he grabbed me and made me look him in the eyes.
I was scared, angry, and sad all at once, but I also knew I loved this man and would do anything for him. So I stopped hitting him but the tears kept coming. He wiped them away and held me in his arms.
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" he said as he rubbed my back.
I couldn't answer him, if I opened my mouth all that came out were sobs.
"I'll never leave you I promise you, I was playing a joke on you now I know I should have never done that" he said and kissed my forehead.
"I'm sorry I'll never leave I promise" I looked at him and could see how sorry he actually felt.
I hugged him and didn't want to let go. So I didn't we stayed like this for as long as we possibly could, then he kissed me. It felt like one of those kisses that could last forever if you let it, but we didn't. Instead he pulled away and we stared at each other in awe. Then he lead me to the couch and we cuddled and pretend what happened never actually truest happened, like it was all just a bad dream.